“Spencer Carlin, would you do me the honor of marrying me?”

“M-Marry you?”   I looked down at Aiden, my boyfriend of 3 years and thought this is what I’ve been waiting for this is what I want, right? So… “Yes Aiden, of course I will marry you.”  I bent down and gave him a soft kiss and jus stayed there in his embrace for awhile.

            Well that’s that he finally asked me to marry him, I had to say yes I’ve been leading him on for years now, of course I love him, but I know that there could be more love in someone else, someone in particular but I just can’t get enough guts to stand up and say, “I love my best friend!”  Yes, my best friend since kindergarten, Ashley Davies.  Everything about her is absolutely perfect.  Her brown curly hair, deep brown eyes that I could look into forever, the outgoing loving personality, the way she laughs, yes everything about her I just absolutely love.  This has been going on since two years ago, let me tell you about the day I first realized that I love her.

“Spence, common, you know you love him and want to be with him.”  Ashley said looking right into my eyes.

“I know Ash, but, after we broke up my parents just absolutely do not want me to be with him, it’s like they hate him.”

“Well they do kind of have a reason, I mean he was the cause of you being brought home in the back of a cop car.”  She said with a slight laugh.

“Not helping Ash..”

She grabbed my hand “Spence, you just have to follow your heart, your heart will tell you who is right and who is wrong for you, only you will ever know who you love.”

            As she grabbed my hand I looked up at her and I felt something, something deep down, it was a longing, it was a good feeling, I felt safe, I felt warm, I felt no, well, ya I feel love, I love her.  All these times Ive caught myself staring at her enjoying the lingering hugs, the touches, oh my god, I love her. 

From that day on I knew that I loved her and I wanted more than anything to be more than just her best friend and til’ this day I have denied those feeling to everyone well, its never been picked up on either its just sat there in my head, slowly killing me while I deny it and continue to be with him, Aiden.  Now look at me I’m sitting her in Aiden’s apartment and he is so exciting telling me how he plans on marrying me and that he wants me to move in a soon as possible, oh god he wants me to move in soon, crap now I have to tell my parents and well my parents, they still do not, and I mean do not like him.