I almost passed out again at the sight of her. Even though I was so angry and upset, I still got weak in the knees whenever I looked into her brown eyes. Right now her hair was messy, mascara ran down her face, and her dress was ripped and bloodstained…and yet she was still beautiful.

“Spence…let’s talk” She said picking up the bracelet she got me off the floor and putting it on the hospital bed.

I finally snapped out of my daze and freaked out.

“Talk? You want to fucking talk to me Ashley? It’s too late for that now!”

“Spencer I know your upset over what happened at prom. But I want you to listen to why I made the choice I made. I choose Aiden and I-.”

“Well no shit you choose Aiden. I was sitting here on my hospital bed, hurt and heartbroken and I look over and who do I see? You holding aiden’s hand and kissing him. I think I know your choice.”

“But I want to explain to you why Spence.”

“I really don’t want to hear why. Is his dick big ash? Is that why? Or does he fuck you better?”

“No spencer. Listen, I still have feelings for Aiden. I have to be honest with myself and you. I still have feelings for you too. But I need to figure this thing out with Aiden first so I can stop lying to you.”

“Well you obviously didn’t care about lying to me throughout our whole relationship when you denied your feelings for that douchebag.”

“Yeah I know and I’m sorry I lied to you spencer. I’m really sorry.”

“You know what Ashley just stop it. If you choose Aiden, then don’t expect me to ever get back together with you, be friends with you, or even talk to you. Your out of my life now Ashley.”

“But spencer, I don’t want you out of my life-.”

“I don’t give a fuck about what you want Ashley. I have no one now. Only me, my dad, my mom, and glen. I don’t even have my one tolerating brother anymore because he’s dead.”

“Oh Spencer I’m so sorry…”

“Save it. We are done.”

I walked out the door into the dimly lit hallway. Aiden was outside of his room, talking to his parents. He tried to wave at me as I passed.

“Fuck you Aiden.” I spat. I continued walking down the hallway, looking back to give him the finger, when I noticed Ashley chasing after me.

“Oh my god you dumb bitch. Ashley, are you stupid? You chose Aiden, your with him, we are over.”

“But Spencer. I’m not sure that’s exactly what I want. I don’t want you out of my life, but I need to figure things out first.”

“Well until you make up your mind for good ashley, don’t expect me to talk to you. And don’t you dare talk to me until you know. Goodbye.”

This time I continued walking without looking back. Why did I give Ashley the permission to talk to me again? She chose Aiden. But I still gave her a second chance to make up her mind. What if she comes to me and says she wants me? Will I forgive her? I don’t know how I could after she’s pretty much taken my heart out of my chest.

There is one thing though. Even though I am so angry and hurt by what she did, I still love her.

And I always will.