I was so turned on, she was too I could tell by the heavy breaths she was taking inbetween kisses. I had started grinding on her leg and she pulled away with a smile and said, "That’s my job babe." I smiled back shyly, I had teased her about grinding on my leg from our previous makeout session last week. I had teased that she had been ‘into it’ even more so than I was. She admitted that she was and that she had never made out with a girl just because she got pleasure from it, she was scared…but so was I in my own way; I just refused to let it show. But now, now that I had repeated what she too had done, now she knew how bad I wanted her.

"Thats the first time you’ve ever called me babe." I pointed out excitedly, I liked it, I liked it coming from her.

"I know…you like?" She asked with a quick kiss.

I moaned in return, "I love it babe."

From that night on we called eachother babe, and I loved the word, but most of all I loved her voice saying it.

"Oh God babe, harder." I was at Alex’s, in her room, on her lap, with her fingers inside me.

"Don’t worry Ash, I know how you like it…no one else can do you like this," she told me, she said it so damn much that I believed it even though I had had better. She made me believe I needed her to stay connected to that part of my life, the part that I had lost.

I wouldn’t look at her, I never could after what she did to me. I looked at the head board and grinded onto her fingers as she pumped into me harder and faster.

She turned me over roughly and I wrapped my legs around her waist as she added a second finger, I never let her do any more than two, it just wasn’t for her to be the one to fill me in that way.

"Say my name babe," she whispered in my ear, that was when she kissed my collarbone and as I came I remembered Spencer…

"I love you Ashley,"