Hey you guys sorry I didn’t post yester day it was my granny’s birthday so I was spending time with the family but to make it up to you guys I will post twice today. Anyways. Thanks to those who post comments.

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Ashley sat at her computer dumb founded. Damn guess she’s still mad at me. But I can’t blame her. I did just leave with out a goodbye and when she needed me most. But I’m not giving up.  

Ashley reply: Spen please just listen to me. I know I made you upset when I left but please let me explain. For a while now I’ve been holding in feelings for you. Hell I’ve loved you since the first day I saw you. But I knew I would never have you that same day too and at first I thought I could handle that. I mean having you in my life is better than not having you at all and to this day that’s still true. But the pain it was causing to be with you without actually being with you hurt so bad. Every night I would cry myself to sleep because how much I loved you and I still do. But it was killing me from the inside out to not be able to call you mine but do most of the things that couples do. I hate myself for hurting you that day. But I needed to do it to save myself. But even though I’m across the country there isn’t a second of the day that I don’t think about you.

            And I know you’re probably wondering why I’m even writing you after being away for so long. It’s because I’m tired of being afraid. I’m tired of running away from my problems. I’m tired of not being able to be in your life. I’m tired of drinking away my memories of you. I’m tired of it all. I’m moving back to Ohio in a couple of weeks. If you’re willing to give me another chance meet me at our spot at eight on the 20th of June.

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Spencer read this message over and over. The more she read it the more she realized how stupid she was for never telling Ashley how she felt but she knew she couldn’t let her back in. If she did she’d just be asking to be hurt again. Spencer quickly shut her laptop  as Sherry came into her room.

Sherry: “Hey baby!” Sherry leaned down and kissed Spencer. Spencer turned her head and gave Sherry her cheek. “What the fuck is your problem? For the past week you’ve been acting like this.” Sherry pulled Spencer up by her neck and gripped it tight “ You gonna answer me huh?” Sherry Smacked Spencer hard and let her fall to the floor.  Tears feel from Spencer’s eyes as Sherry’s hand came into contact with her face. “Oh so now you’re going to huh. Let me give you something to cry about.” Sherry started kicking Spencer while she laid on the floor against the door.

            After Sherry left Spencer pulled herself off the floor into her bathroom. She grabbed her razor off the counter and sat in the bad tub. She sliced her arm until she no longer felt the pain. Spencer passed out in the tub drenched in her blood.