She couldn’t get the image of her sad, pain filled eyes out of her mind. She had thought she had loved Aiden, until the baby had happened, what if this time was the same… what if, when it really sunk in that she and Spencer were going to have this baby, she realised she didn’t love Spencer either. She mentally slapped herself.

“Its completely different you idiot, Spence isn’t Aiden, and this is completely different, baby one was an accident, baby two is planned and wanted, its all you wanted!” she scolded herself before turning back to the chair and dumping down on it.

After receiving the go ahead from her manager she rushed into the studio and sorted out the demo, normally it would take 3 or4 days to get it right, but she had practiced so much she just got on with it and got it on a disk, calling a courier she arranged to have it picked up from the reception area, leaving the disk with the receptionist she walked through the doors and grimaced when she realised it was coming in dark.

She dumped down into the car seat and rested her head on the steering wheel. ‘What am I going to do, iv fucked up big style’ she shook her head, her face contorting with anger and self loathing. She sat back and turned the engine over, driving to a place she knew she could be alone to think and work out what and how she was going to tell Spencer.

She pulled into the car park, and locked her car, climbing the medium height fence she wandered around the dark grounds till she reached the swings, sitting on her swing she began to rock slowly back and forth.

‘What have I done, iv ruined everything, I cant do this… I can’t be a parent!’ she thought as a lone tear rolled down her face.

“Funny I thought I would find you here” came a deep voice she recognised from behind her, she dried her cheek and turned slowly to be met with her past. She stood slowly from the swing and walked towards him wrapping her arms tightly around his neck. She felt his arms rest on her waist and his cheek lay on her forehead and she felt safe once again.