“Doctor Andrews…” I said standing in the door frame of a hospital room where Megan was checking on her patient “…can I have a word with you?” I asked after I had gotten her attention

“uh…yes, I will be right back” she told her patient “what? you want a quickie? You know I have to admit this darker hair really looks good on you…very sexy…” she added trying to get close to me, but I pulled away not being able to take her right now

“did you sign the papers this morning?” I asked

“what is so good about her Ashley?” Megan asked

“did…you…sign the papers?” I asked again slower then Megan took a breath reaching to the back of the chart she was holding and handed the papers to me, and I flipped through them to find her signature on the line

“ok?” Megan asked

“ok…” I said taking the papers with me

“Ashley I’m sorry…” she said to me as I walked away and I turned around

“I bet you are…” I said then I took the papers to put them in my locker and I took a pen and then I heard Andrew behind me

“you sure you want to do that?” he asked

“I need to do this…” I said signing them

“no turning back now…” he said grabbing something out of his locker then he walked away

“yeah…no turning back…” I said putting the papers in my locker then I sat down for potentially a second until I got a page on my beeper…a typical hospital emergency

That night…after work, I went to the bar to finally tell Spencer I was in this…I wasn’t done either…what I’m feeling for her defiantly isn’t normal, but…look at what a mess I am, could I really bare to bring all that onto her…if I truly cared about her…

“hey…Joe have you seen Spencer?” I asked sitting at the bar then I saw Lauren

“hey ash…” she said

“oh uh…hi…is Spencer here?”

“no she should be soon though…” she told her then I got a page on my beeper for an emergency in the E.R.

“…fuck…” I said to myself “…Lauren, I have to go…if Spencer comes, tell her I was here ok? She’ll understand…I hope at least…” I told her