Oh well. I’m moving on happily. It has, in fact, been eighteen days since I last saw him, and that was the day he slapped me like the worthless bastard he was. It’s so funny how I’ve been keeping track of the number 18 by the way. It always finds a way to sneak up on me with some kind of special meaning attached to it. I don’t understand why I’m so paranoid about this number. Maybe it’s because of Aiden. That boy was a handful of bad luck anyways ever since my eighteenth birthday.
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It’s pretty intense that I’m finally going to get the chance to leave Los Angeles for the first time in a year and six months. Tonight, my mom, Kyla, and I are on an eighteen hour flight to Ohio to attend my mom’s high school friend’s son’s graduation. Her friend’s last name is Carlin or something like that, and my mom has always been really close to Paula and her family so anything having to do with the Carlins concerns her and us as well.I think the graduation is just an excuse for my mom to eye fuck Paula. From what I’ve seen in her pictures, Paula is attractive for being an older woman and my mom is a closet-case lesbian. Ha! Oh god, that’s sick of me to think this way. I’m way too bored I guess. Well, on to my point. I wish I could be more excited for the family but since I don’t know them as well as my mother does, it just feels weird to be happy for a family I’ve never met. I know I’m going to feel out of place immediately when we reach their place too, you see, because I have never been to Ohio so I don’t know what the experience is going to be like. Plus, I’m going to live with a whole other family so I’m beginning to feel uncomfortable already. I’m just glad that this flight will last eighteen hours, with all the stops we have to make after the delay that was announced an hour ago. Eighteen hours gives me enough time to rethink the past eighteen years of my life. Maybe once I reach Ohio, I’ll start a clean slate. I want to be re-born again because the person that I am now is weak and I need to change that. Fast.
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