Jacob

i do love you but not as much as i love edward

i have some sort of feelings for you

i cant stop thinking about you and it hurts me to think that im going to lose youi

i hope you come to my wedding jacob because i really miss my personal heater(laughs)

i hope to see you soon

love Bella

i was shaking while i folded the little note because not only was my jacob a werewolf as well as my best friend, but i also knew that one day he would try to fight edward. I was worried for both of them because i love them both with my heart and soul but i didnt know how i could stop either of them without hurting them. I had sent a wedding invitation to jacob because when edward left me thinking it would be best  for me jacob was the only one capable of holding me together.i knew it would hopeless trying to find him after sending him the invitation. The thought of Edward and I together hurt him so he ran away and now i was really worried for his life. Trust me if i had to risk my life to save him i would do it. Jacob is family to me and charlie and i felt guilty for hurting him like this even though i didnt mean to;.i would not have noticed i was crying until edward brushed the tears from my cheek. i didnt even hear him come in."its okay bella,everything is going to be alright.alice saw you looking for him and she saw you disappear so that means that most probably you found him and he is keeping you safe".they will find him,it will be okay was what he was constant;ly reassuring me.i dug my face into his chest and finished sobbing so i would not ruin his shirt.Again.i must of dozed off in his arms because i could not remember falling asleep on his double bed, which he bought for me although he had no need for it.