"I think I’m falling for you…"

Spencer hung her head, preparing for the worst.

Ashley, who was stunned into silence, didn’t say a word.

Agh!  How did I not see this coming?  I should have known she didn’t like me.  I don’t know what I was even thinking.  And now she’s going to hate me.  What did you honestly think?  Did you expect her to come out to you with her feelings?  Did you expect her to confess to her undying love for you and tell you that you were all she needed? C’mon Spence.  You know better than that.  Things don’t work out like they’re supposed to for you.  Not things this important, anyway.

Spencer was the first to break the silence.

"I-I’m sorry.  I don’t really know what I was thinking…I’ll just go now.  Sorry," she got up and started to walk out of Ashley’s room.

"No! Spence, wait.  I don’t want you to leave.  Believe me when I say that’s the last thing I want. Stay, please?"

"No, it’s fine.  I understand.  Like I said, I’m not sure what I was thinking.  I’ll just stop bothering you now." how could I be so freaking stupid?!

"Spencer Carlin.  Do not even think about leaving me after saying something like that to me.  Not until you give me a chance to respond at least." is she mad at me? I didn’t even do anything ! Wait, oh, yes I did. I up and told her I LIKED her! IDIOT!

"what then?  I get that you don’t like me.  It was just…the way you acted around me…the way you made me feel…I don’t know.  I just though…forget it.  It’s ok though, I get it. You don’t like me. It’s cool. I’ll just go now"

"Will you just hold on a second?  You haven’t even given me a chance to explain, Spencer! Come here." She patted the bed beside her.  "Come here and sit down.  We need to talk."

Why won’t she just let me leave?  Doesn’t she understand how humiliating this is for me?

"..ok."

 "Look.  Ever since the first day we met,  I’ve felt something for you.  It wasn’t a feeling I recognized, but it definitely wasn’t a feeling I wanted to go away.  I wanted to see you all the time, and when I wasn’t with you, I was thinking about you.  A lot.  And these past two weeks, being away from you, were two of the worst weeks I’ve had in a long time.  And I know why.  It was because you weren’t there with me.  You, Spencer.  Not being around you…I was miserable.  And I think I know what that feeling I have for you is.  I don’t know if I’d call it love, but it’s damn near close.  So don’t think, even for a second, that I don’t feel something for you.  I just never expected in a million years for you to feel the same way."

"Really?" Spencer still had her head down, staring intently at the fabric of the sheets next to her legs.

Ashley put her hand under Spencer’s chin, and lifted up her head so that they were staring eachother in the eyes.

"Really.  And I know this is confusing for you.  I’ve been there after all.  But you need to know that no matter what happens, I’m going to be there for you.  I want to be with you more than anything in the world, but I also understand that you need some time to adjust to what you’re feeling.  And I’m more than willing to wait.  I want us to be different…to be special. So whenever–"

Spencer surprised the both of them with what she did next.  Before she could even register what was going on, her lips were on Ashley’s.  It wasn’t deep, it wasn’t even hot, but it was the most tender and loving kiss either girl had ever experienced, and it was pretty close to perfect.  Spencer pulled away and looked into Ashley’s eyes.

"And we’re going to be.  Special, I mean.  We’re going to be special.  I can feel it."