After I made that statement there was a multitude of gasping and I swear the whole school, even the staff, turned there heads and looked at Spencer. She frowned then developed this look of disbelief on that pretty face of hers. Oh yea the whispers were going around like hot gossip on Lindsay lohan and her new drug addiction. I was afraid to look around but I did. My parents, well they just looked confused, others looked amused and Aiden…he just looked livid. Why stop now huh? I continued.

“I have loved you Spencer Carlin ever since I sat behind you in Ms. Rosa’s math class in the 8^th grade.” I said with this unbelievably goofy ass grin on my face. “I loved you when I sat behind you in senior wieners Spanish class, and Mrs. Kalamethoby’s literature of the oppressed. I loved you from behind…” right when I heard that sentence come out of my mouth I regretted it. I saw the staffs head turn brutally towards me that I heard them get whiplash. Everyone else giggled. “in biology, history and yes! Practical science…I loved you but I never told you because we never spoke…” by this time of my speech I was getting looks of confuse, disbelief and sheer what the fuck are you doing kid? But I couldn’t stop now I had already unleashed the beast.

“But now I say it with no regrets. I love you…Spencer Carlin. And so let us all say the things that we long to say but our tongues would not, let us be unafraid to admit…I have an eating disorder and I need help” I said as I looked over at Janice Cooper-man. Jessica Brown, her best friend looked at me with wide eyes but hey when ya need help ya need help. Janice on the other hand just sat there. “Let us confess that…Im a stuck up bitch! Because deep down I believe I am worthless!” I said enthusiastically looking straight at Madison Duarte. I wasn’t naming names because hey I’m no snitch buuuutt…people got the message. There was an array of gasps after that little comment and the people sitting next to Madison looked at her as she glared at me. If looks could kill the ice princesses laser beams would have shot out of that big head of hers and annihilated me. “Let us declare I’m a Big DUMB MORON…” I said discreetly Addressing the air head Glen Carlin. Yea he was Spencer’s brother but it still didn’t change the fact that he was a raging dickwad. “I’m a big ol’ asshole who beats up on other kids because…I was unloved as a baby or was sexually abused or something.” I said not knowing if that was true but a kid with that many aggressive issues had to have something traumatic happen to him. I swear if Glen could just get out of that chair right now he would pummel me until I couldn’t see straight, disregard the fact that I was a girl.