Bella’s POV

I stood in front of my mirror, in my bedroom. I tugged at my deep blue top, trying to think of a way to look good, not just decent, but I knew it was a lost cause, and I gave up.

If only Alice was here…

The stray thought crossed my mind and I felt a cold chill down my spine. I wrapped my arms around my torso and knew that I was being weak, still loving the man or, well, vampire that left me ten years ago. But I had a secret hope inside me that told me and teased me, telling me he must still think of you, he must care.

If we met again, I'd try to walk away. I’d pretend I never loved him, I never missed him, if I could. Because that’s how he felt about me, and I knew it. Because if I did see him again, I probably would just love him even more. I couldn't help it. I wondered wheather his eyes were gold or black right now…

But it was stupid to be thinking these things, how I'd be strong when he came back. Because Edward wasn't coming back. And that was the honest truth.

“Bells, are you ready?” My roomie, Angela Weber, had changed a lot since high school. She had dumped Ben after a while and had changed her whole personality. She was now two different people, and I loved them both. The sweet, caring girl from before to me and her family, and a wild party chick to the others!

I loved her (as a friend, of course) for helping me from my depression. After Edward left I was an empty shell. She and Jacob Black helped me try and get over him. Jacob went weird one day though, and stared hanging out with this weird cult. He told me he wasn't allowed to see me again. It hurt, it hurt a lot, but Angela was there for me during that time, and still was there for me.

We lived together in an apartment in New York, in the middle of the city. We went clubbing weekly, but I usually just sat at a table, sipping my drink. I hadn't got over Edward. No man could ever take my breath away the way he did, no man could fill up the empty space in my heaart. Angie occasionally had boyfriends, although Angela mainly just hooked up with guys at every club we went to.