Spencer didn’t see Carmen’s car in the drive way and it was mid-night already, she felt something odd but she couldn’t put her finger on it. She walked to the door and ringed the door bell once… twice and then she just opened the door and walked in to the living room and saw a broken up Ashley on the ground. Tissue paper everywhere, she could hear her sniffle and whimper from behind the couch. This broke Spencer up deep inside.

“Ashley honey what’s wrong?” as Spencer moved over to Ashley and sat down next to her, rubbing her back up and down.

She waited a few seconds and there was no response.

“Ash where’s Carmen? I didn’t see her car?” I asked hoping I’d get an answer this time. But still no answer. I just sat there trying to make her feel better.

Sometime during me trying to console her I was holding her in my arms. Her head on my shoulder and her hands wrapped around me, grabbing me for dear life. It was the best feeling in the world have Ashley in my arms. Me keeping her safe. I wanted to tell her I loved her no matter what and I just didn’t love her but LOVE, LOVE her. I knew if I did this it would hurt us at the end, and I couldn’t loose her not matter what, she’s my everything.

Sometime later she fell asleep in my arms her breath was soft on my neck, there wasn’t a better feeling. I held her and took her upstairs to her bed. I tucked her in and as I began to leave she pulled me back

 “Spence can you stay with me… please” her voice came out so hurt I didn’t have the heart to say no. 

    “I’m not going anywhere” I swear I saw a smile, but right now all I’m going to do is lay down next to you and make you feel better. Because that all I do right, I’m there to take care of you when things go bad with you girlfriends. It’s never me holding you because I love you. There always has to be a stupid reason I do this over and over.