Ashley’s pov


Flashback



When did life get so complicated? When did my world start spinning out of control? I think it was when I first met HER. I remember the first day of soccer practice, three days until my ninth birthday. I noticed her right away. Blonde hair, blue eyes, and the cuttest frekles around her nose. She was and still is breathtakingly beautiful. Back then when I use to have butterflies in my stomache wheni was around her, I just thought I should lay off the candy she was giving me.I had no idea at the time that I was infatuated with her. So much so that she was the only one that I invited to my birthday, eventhough it was going to be my family and me going to the beach house for the weekend. I had best friends on that soccer team, but none of them seemed to matter much after I met her.



After a four hour phone conversation my mom finally convinced Mrs Carlin to let her go. My mom did ask me numerous times. ” why can’t you pick a girl from the soccer team that you have known a little while longer. My answer was always the same, “because mom, she is going to be my best friend for life, I can just tell”. With a sigh and a slight grumble she walked away defeated.



“so your mom finaly said yes?



“yea, I’m so excited ash.



“I know, me too, we are going to have the best time.



“so ash, is any of your other friends going?



She said with a hint of sadness in her voice while looking down at the floor.



I smiled at the site and said. “I don’t need anyone else, I have you.



She looked up and locked eyes with me and giggled at my answer.



Who knew that statement would hold so true, not just for that weekend, but for the rest of my life.


After that weekend we became inseperable and I realized that I would do anything and everthing in my power to make that girl happy. I didn’t know it at the time, but for me, it was love at first site….



Present



“Spencer..I um, don’t know what to say really..


“well ash you really need to say something, I mean I need to know if you had anything to do with the car accident.



“why? I mean spence,the bastard is
gone, does it really matter how it happened?


“I don’t know, in a way I am beyond ecstatic because I don’t have to look at that disgusting, dirty old man anymore, but a part of me wants to know who hated him more then me to do such a thing, ya know?



“well….I think I might have hated him a little more then you..if we are being honest.


“how could you hate him more then I did ash?



“he was…I mean he did things…um ..I don’t know..he was hurting you.I said while looking at the ground letting a tear roll down my cheek. Spencer lifted up my chin with her hand and wiped the tear away.


“ash look at me please… I looked up and locked eyes with her. “please just tell me why? “why you hated him more, there has to be another reason then because he was hurting me.


” well he was hurting you!! Do you have any idea how hard it is to see some one you love, someone your…I trailed off and started to sob
And Spencer held me and stroked my hair while whispering


“hey hey..shh its okay I got you..but, ash someone your what?


I picked my head up from her chest and she wiped the tears away from my face while caressing my cheek. I took her hands in mine, looked her in the eye and said in barley a whisper.


“someone your…madly in love with, and you couldn’t protect all those years. Seeing you go through all this basically by yourself, it killed me a little more every day knowing that you were in so much pain and I felt helpless…


She was just staring at me, not saying a word…and I wouldn’t dare break eye contact, not now, not when what ever comes out of her mouth could make or break me. She finally opens he mouth to speak and she says.


“how long?


“how long what spence?


“how long have you been in love with me?


I sigh and say “since the day I met you on that soccer field…from then on I realized that I would do anything to see you smile. Um.. why did you need to know that, if you don’t mind me asking?


“oh ah…just..I guess, making sure I wasn’t the only one that fell in love that day. She says with a huge smile on her face.


“you fell in love on that soccer field too? Wait, wait, it was with me right? I say with a hint of seriousness.


“of course it was with you…it could never be anyone else…


I smiled my nose crinkling smile and my lips found my way to hers in a passionate kiss.. Her hands went around my neck to draw me closer to her, while my hands were around her waist making her impossibly close to me…the electricty that I felt coming from that kiss was indescribable. I have never felt anything so heated and gentle at the same time. My lips felt like they were on fire. I felt her tongue beg for entrance and I let her explore my mouth at first and then I couldn’t help massaging her tongue with mine…slight whimpers and moans could be heard from both of us. We broke the kiss for much needed air..only to start kissing again. This went on for hours it seemed, just getting use to kissing and exploring each others mouth. We let our hands roam and found each others breasts and gently stroked and squeezed not wanting to go to far yet. I layed her down on her bed and never broke the kiss.. Until..


“um ash, I don’t want to bring this up again, but I think I need to know the truth. Did you have anything to do with his death?


I looked away from her and rolled over on my side facing her direction, but focusing on my hands


“I don’t know how to answer that.


“what do you mean, its either yes or no.


“its not that simple spence..I said with tears in my eyes. “he hurt you, the love of my life. I had to hurt him back..


“oh god ash…you didn’t?…please say it wasn’t you.


“I wish I could……..have done it for you, but I didn’t get the chance.


“huh? Ash I’m confused, did you cut the brake line or not?


“I didn’t do it, I was to late…but I saw who did it.



“so your saying you were there to cut the brake line, but someone beat you to it?


“yes…yea spence, I would do anything to see you happy even if that meant killing that bastard..



“ash…I …I don’t know what to think…swear to me on everything that we are and have together that it wasn’t you.



“I swear spence…..It would have been, if that girl didn’t beat me to it.


“it was another girl?
What did she look like?



“honestly, kinda like you, but I didn’t get a really good look at her whole face.



“ash…this is really important…about what time was this?



“don’t know…I guess around 3 a.m. Why?



“oh my god….I…oh god..it couldn’t be..



I cut her rambling off and asked



“spence, what? What is it, why are you flipping out.



She started to sob into my shoulder and choked out….



“I… slept walked… that night ash…. And woke up with oil on my hands and shirt…



“oh god…no







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