"So is there a reason you decided to stop by or should I expect more random visits from you," I joked. "Not that I don’t mind you coming, but I just don’t want to scare you off with my messiness," I said pointing to the empty food wrappers and cups all over the bus.

"Oh no, this is definitely not messy," she said. "I’ve seen worse."

"Haha okay. Just checking," I said throwing away some rubbish that was on the table. I sat back down, but this time a little closer to Spencer then before. Yes, I’m sneaky like that.

"So uhm," she mumbled while twirling her thumbs. "Can I ask you something? Well actually talk to you about something." I nodded my head because I was afraid of what she was gonna say next. "I read the article in the magazine about your first love," she said.

My eyes basically popped out of its sockets and my heart melted. I never wanted her to see the article until after I told her. "Oh." I paused.  "Look Spenc—"

"Why didn’t you tell me Ash? " she asked tilting her head. I stared into her blue eyes, and got lost.

"I guess I was just scared on what you would think," I sighed. "I’ve been keeping in my feelings for years because I didn’t know what people’s reaction would be."

"Well, you and Kyla are best friends, so I guess I could see why you would be scared of her reaction," she said looking down at her lap. My body tensed when she said Kyla’s name.

"Kyla?" I said confused.

"Yeah. Didn’t you basically say you loved Kyla in the magazine?" My heart was racing. This was my chance to tell her I love her. It’s the moment that would change my life forever. She would either walk out of my life forever, or be in it as a friend… or more. But, I need to take the risk.

"It’s hard to explain what I’m going to say next," I stuttered. I could feel sweat build up on my forehead, and my leg started bouncing up and down.  "I uhmm…I—"

"Are you okay Ash?" she asked placing her hand on my knee. My whole body fidgeted and I know she felt it.  My eyes scanned the whole room, and I caught site of paper and a pen. I got up to grab the items, and sat back down next to the beautiful blonde. "What are you doing?" she asked as I started writing something out on the paper.