"i don’t wanna leave you though…i love you" i cried out as she slowly made her way to the door. "i know babe just trust in fate to bring us to gether" she opened the door and made her way out crying still. "wait!" i shouted chasing and almost falling down the stairs. by the time i was already down stairs and to the door she was getting in her car.

"no PLEASE"i begged falling at her feet. "look spence i’ll help you pack but we just friends now and if we meet again we can try again." i let her go this time. its as if she was falling off the cliff of my life and i was holding on to her by our fingertips. i hated it.

when i returned to my room i colapsed on the bed. just crying.

the morning after i decided i was going to leave within the week. i had to. i can’t play for sizzle anymore and i just need to leave. believe me i wanted to go here but Texas is scouted much more for USA softball than california.  i picked up my cell and dialed ashley’s number.

ring…..ring….

"hey" her voice softer than normal

"umm i’m packing i’m gunna leave as soon as possible" i said coldly

"oh…okay i’ll um head over."

"yeah bye"

"bye spence"

i had sat on my wooden floor just waiting. my parents had bought various types and sizes of boxes the night before so we were full on those.

before long i herd a knock at the door. and someone slowly climb up the stairs. another knock on my door now.

"yeah come in" i knew it was ashley you could tell as she slowly opened the door and walked in as if she was walking on egg shels. "hey" once again her voice softer than normal "you okay?" i looked up at her telling her with my eyes i couldn’t be okay with out her in my life.

"lets pack so i can fucking get out of this hell hole for a state" i said turning quickly not to see the sadness on her face. "i payed for all your stuff to get shipped" she said "thanks" i said bluntly but still telling her thank you.

a few hours had gone by and not much talking just packing. my room was offically empty exept for the boxes soon to be shipped to texas.  

"ashley i want you to drive me to the air port tomorrow." i had been mean lately but i wanted to stay and i knew if i did she wouldn’t have gotten with me anyway. "alright spence"  

it was about 11 pm and i guess while me and ashley were packing my dad ordered a plane ticket for noon the next day. the movers are coming at around 7.  

"come on we can go make up the bed down stairs….friends can sleep in the same bed right?" i knew i was being a smart ass but i didn’t care. "yes spence"  

after the couch bed was made up we turned the tv on. we were mostly as far as we could get. 

i was starting to get tired and i soon saw ashley move from her sitting postion to lay down on the bed. i had followed just a few minuets after.

about 1 hour went by and i could tell by the tossing and turning she wasn’t asleep either. i knew the problem, we werent next to eachother there was about 3 feet of space between us. knowing i couldn’t take it any longer i rolled over so i was up against her back spooning her.

"night ash" i whispered

"night spence"  was all that was said before we driffted off into a deep sleep.