“LEAVE MY FRIENDS!? Spencer don’t go there! YOU took them from me. I never wanted any of you to leave, but guess what … you did! Did you expect me to sit around sulking for the rest of my life? No of course I was going to make new friends. Don’t give me your bullshit Spencer. Stop being a coward and just live for yourself.”

“I CAN’T ASHLEY!! You don’t get it. I am a coward, I know. I let other people run my life and I live for other people. I don’t know how to live for myself…”

I cut her off again, “Yeah, you really don’t because if you did you would let yourself be happy and just be with me. … You asked me not to run from this and yet look what you’re doing. I can’t believe you.” Tears were streaming steadily down my face while she stood there, emotionless.

“I love you, more than anything. But this,” she said, pointing between us, “this is too much for me. I’m sorry but go back to Jess. She deserves you … I’ll never be enough for you Ashley, and I think that’s the most courageous thing I’ve ever done – realize that I’ll never deserve you.”

“Shut up.”

“Excuse me?”

“I said, shut up.”

“What the hell for? I’m spilling my heart to you and you …”

I silence her with a kiss. I couldn’t take it anymore. The kiss was filled with passion. That was my way of spilling my heart to her. It was fierce and hot, and she didn’t put up a fight when I slipped my tongue into her mouth. I let the kiss last as long as possible. I guess this was my goodbye. She knew I loved her, she knew I was in love with her, no other words needed to be said. All I could hope for was that she would grow up and be her own person. When the kiss ended, I whispered a gentle ‘goodbye’ in her ear and turned to leave. The scary thing is that as soon as I did, I saw a brown haired girl turn the corner quick, like she had seen something she shouldn’t have.

FUCK! Who was that?!

I wipe away my tears and I run down the hall as quick as possible to find the girl, and when I turn the corner I just so happen to find …

…TBC

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