“I didn’t kiss him Spencer! Couldn’t you see that? He was holding me and I didn’t want to make a scene and struggle-.”

“Bullshit Ashley. Remember that one night? When you called me after you fucked Aiden? I don’t believe it that you don’t want him. You don’t know what you want.”

“Spencer…if I really wanted to be with Aiden, then why am I fighting for you? Why do I constantly call you? Why would I be trying so hard to get you back if I wanted Aiden?”

“I don’t know Ashley. Cause you want the best of both worlds. You want to live like a straight girl, with a hot, muscular boyfriend. Then you want to live like a lesbian, with a sexy girl who knows how to turn you on. You can’t have both Ashley.”

“I know I can’t have both Spencer. I don’t want both. I want you.”

“That’s what you said at the art studio. And look how that turned out.”

“I know I made the worst mistake I could…do you think I don’t know that? I don’t like being with him. And I sure as hell don’t know why I chose him at prom. It was messed up. I’m so sorry I broke your heart Spencer. I’m sorry I lied to you. I’m sorry about everything I did. But I won’t let you get away. I’m going to keep trying until your mine again.”

“Ashley…I don’t know what to do.” I said. I could feel myself forgiving her. I’ve tried to hold her off, but it’s getting so hard when just looking into her mocha brown eyes makes me melt. “I like Carmen…a lot. I can’t just ditch her for you.”

“But you like her. And you love me. Shouldn’t your choice be obvious?”

“Don’t talk to me about making good choices Ashley. Look at the meathead you decided to be with.” She scowled as I said that but I kept going. “Look, you haven’t even broken up with Aiden yet Ashley. I’m definitely not breaking up with Amanda unless you break up with him. For good.”

She hesitated but finally spoke. “Spencer…I don’t love him like I love you. I’ll break up with him. I promise.”