She nodded and grabbed my waist and pulled herself into me. She put her head on my chest and just cried. I leaned back on the bed and ran my one hand through her hair and my other hand rubbed her back. Trying to comfort her. She soon fell asleep. I decided to turn on the tv and watch some family guy that I had on dvd. It’s a stress reliever.

The next day I woke up to someone drawing designs on my stomach. After Spencer froze up I only got a pair of boxers and a bra back on and she was still shirtless with pants on. So her uncovered chest was pressed onto the side part of my stomach and it felt so nice to be this close to her. She must have noticed me starring at her hand that was making designs cuz she looked up into my eyes. 

Spencer: "Hi." She said softly.

Ashley: "Hi." I replied. "Are you ok?" I asked concerned.

Spencer: "Ya. Sorry about last night. I don’t know what happened. I ju…"

Ashley: "It’s not your fault. Don’t apologize. Ok?" I say rubbing her very soft skin on her bare back.

Spencer: "Ok." She says in a sad tone and a tear falls down her face.

Ashley: "Spence whats wrong?" Still rubbing her back.

Spencer: "It’s just that, I’m ruining this whole thing for us. I don’t deserve you and I think that eventually you’re going to realize it. I mean I can’t even let you touch me with out freezing." I know this was a serious thing but for some odd reason I just laughed. I think I’m going crazy. I also think I hurt her feelings cuz she gave me a hurt look and then turned her head away from me. "This isn’t funny. It’s serious. How long are you going to put up with my neurotic tendencies before you get sick of me?"

Ashley: "Spence. I’m sorry I shouldn’t have laughed." I say lifting her chin up to look her in the eyes. "I guess I have some neurotic tendencies myself that you have to deal with as well." I smile and she kind of glares at me. "I’m not making fun of you. It’s just sometimes when I don’t know what to do or say in a stressfull situation I laugh. It’s just something I do. It’s weird and I’m sorry. See no one’s perfect especially me. We all have our faults. So please don’t think that I’m better than you and you don’t deserve me. I love you and that’s not going to change. We will get through all of this and I’m not a quiter so be ready to have me by your side the whole way through this." I smile and kiss the top of her head.