After the discussion with Jenny me once had become more conscious that it was time, to take my life again into the hand. And admitted, this was an opportunity, which I would miss all too much, but whether was not allowed to give the vehement speech of Alice, unfortunately or also thank God.

Oh God, as empty is nevertheless the wardrobe of a woman, who was for years no longer out and also otherwise so completely missed, which actually at present trendy is. Jaja, the wardrobe of a woman is always too empty. Naja, perhaps do it also a Jeans, a Top and a loose blouse over it or rather nevertheless an airy summer dress? TC… no, Jeans is good and comfortable and first of all not so remarkably. I fell to the door, already there because my taxi was. I snatched my bag, mean key, a short view into the mirror: ‚Jesus, I should have tightened black costume.' The driver honked for the third time outside and was called so what for me „, goes' already, otherwise he is away and you gets quantity annoyance with Alice.” Thus I jumped in the taxi and drove into planet.

Wow, I saw that not so full to planet for a long time, actually I did not see planet for a long time and with so many humans already directly not at all.

And there they all stood for Alice, Dana, beautiful one, Jenny around a small bar table, Carmen and naturally kits. All had a smile on the lips, as dear from them, because they wanted to receive me affectionately, but their view said: ‚Well, that becomes also times time!' As I Jenny’s eyes saw, could have loose-howled I immediately, but I was strong and calm, so, as I had promised it you, so that also I can hold you, if you come back. Kit brought me a drink and before I provided myself, Alice me had pulled already on the dance floor and made themselves with large, inviting gestures, wave her arms about and a view, like it only Alice can has clearly that I was not to move nevertheless after the rhythm of the music and dare it, the dance floor without this dance to leave. What probably could be now still more convincing? While I danced with her, my look struck, or better said, in the eyes of a woman at the bar. It smiled me to and whispered: „You need my help?” Dearest I would have ‚!' cried, but I vibrated only the head. From the instant on I could not stop any longer to look at it. It was approx. 1,70-1,75 largely, so at the beginning of 40, had long brown hair and large, beautiful brown eyes. It had thrown a white blouse, which radiates in the light of the Spots brightly, over it leave a Blazer, consents in addition narrowly cut trousers and black shoes. Gently it painted with its hand by their hair and smiled themselves thereby in. It had such a smile, which could fill out the whole area, which gave you the feeling that only you were there still for them, who let everything disappear in the area around you all the noises, the music, the light up to this one that its smile illuminated.

Back at the bar table with the others I saw still its smile forwards to mine eyes. Unfortunately the dancing quantity had pushed itself into my field of view, so that I lost sight of it. I made myself completely long, looked for this light, tried mean view through the crowd to channel. Beautiful one asked: „Which is with you, it is actually the matter two years ago and we make ourselves genuinely concerns around you?” Jerky turned I too beautiful ones. „Which?” I must have frightened probably in such a way and look at the same time disturbed that beautiful ones itself immediately with excused and hastily the topic changed. It got one tenderly kiss of Carmen on the cheek, so that it was clear for me that I needed to answer no more to this question. Afterwards I really strove to follow the discussion and also bring in me, what failed however pitifully, because I had not really understood, for which it actually went. Thus I decided to dare the step and go to the bar. My view curved the bar along, high and down, looking for this smile. But it was away. And in such a way I use the favour of the hour, in order to disappear fast home.

Their smile did not go to me any longer by heart. And also, if you become bad now, Bette, it bewitched has me. I mean, how long I am to blow still affliction here? How long am I to wait still for you? Do I have not also the right to a little human proximity and warmth? I burn up myself so much after the fact that everything cramps in me. I would like to look at and know to be fallen to be able into these arms, would like her that it gives one morning, would like again to feel to be able, before also the last nerve in my heart died. It is so long ago that someone found me desire worth. When it regarded me, I felt again as a woman.

‚And, I need your help!’