“Spencer?” Ashley bent down in front of her and cupped her face.

“I’m so sorry.” Spencer’s broken voice whispered.

“Who is with Tyler?” She knew it wasn’t the best response but she wanted to know.

“My brother.” Ashley just nodded her head and helped Spencer stand up. She led her in the bedroom to talk.

“Are you ever going to talk to me again?” Spencer felt so vulnerable.

Ashley moved to Spencer and pulled her into a silent hug. They stood their with Spencer’s forehead in Ashley’s neck and both of them afraid to say anything.

“Spence….I….I really love you.” It was not what Spencer was expecting but she just held Ashley tighter afraid something bad was about to come.

“And I am so afraid that I am going to mess up your life…..I mean look at how wrong things have gone since you met me!” Spencer pulled away to look at Ashley shaking her head.

“Would you stop treating me like a child…..I protect Tyler the way your trying to protect me and he is 4.….” Spencer said a little angry and sarcastic.

“I…I’m sorry I just…”

“You just what…..Ashley I can make my own decisions, I was in the room today, I saw what my mom did, but you know what else I saw…..? I saw you pull me behind you…..I saw that even when things couldn’t have been any worse you put me before yourself….” Spencer moved back into Ashley’s body but this time with a whole knew purpose.

“I saw….your life flash before my eyes.” Ashley whispered.

“I know.” Spencer pulled Ashley towards the bed this time making sure Ashley wouldn’t put up any kind of a fight.

“Sleep with me.??” It was a statement but she knew that she also had to ask and Ashley’s body was so tired she climbed into the covers and snuggled up to Spencer.

“It doesn’t get much better with me…” Ashley stated wanting to make sure Spencer knew what she was getting herself into.

“Whatever happens or doesn’t happen…..I….I love you.” Spencer tilted her head up so they could kiss. It wasn’t meant to heighten the mood or to seduce her it was loving and slow and both girls just held each other and kissed each others lips, face, foreheads, hair, necks, and back to the lips again. It was slow and made them both feel like they couldn’t have been any higher. And when it finally slowed they both laid on their side with their arms wrapped around each other.

“Goodnight Spencer..”

“Mmmm.” Was all Spencer said as the days events took over and se fell asleep.