CHAPTER NINETEEN

SPENCER’S POV:

Ashley: I should get you home. It’s getting late.

My eyes shoot open and I see Ashley looking down at the rock. She quickly stands and offers me her hand to help me stand up. I can not believe that just happened. I thought that was going to be such a perfect moment and instead I feel completely humiliated. Why in the hell would I think Ashley would want to kiss me? I mean seriously a girl that gorgeous would not be gay. I couldn’t even look her in the eyes.

We climbed down off the rock and walked back to her car. Neither of us said a word, and it was a long walk. I can’t wait to get home. We get to her car and she pulls out of the parking lot. On the way to my house we were in the most uncomfortable silence. Both of us didn’t know what to say. Well, she had a good reason. I mean she has been so sweet to me since the day we met, and there I go coming on too strong and making her feel uncomfortable.

She finally pulls up to my house and I don’t know what to do. I want to apologize, but I am still so embarrassed.

Spencer: Ashley I…

Ashley is looking down at the steering wheel not attempting to make eye contact with me. I blew it. I instantly open the door to get out of the car as soon as possible. I was now walking super fast to my front door. When I get into my house I run up to my room ready to burst into tears any minute.

ASHLEY’S POV:

I am such an ASS!!

As soon as Spencer got out of my car I watched her practically run into her house. After I saw her go in, I drove off as fast as I could. I have been wanting to kiss her since the day we met, but when I saw her leaning in to kiss me I just couldn’t go through with it. All I was thinking about was how scared I was, how scared she makes me. Every time I’m in her presence the feelings I have for her just get stronger and stronger. And Madison was right, I can’t stop it.

SPENCER’S POV:

I collapse on my bed and the tears come pouring out. How could I be so stupid? I have my head buried in my pillow and then I hear my door open.

Glenn: Spencer, I need to use your computer.

Spencer: Glenn, go away. Now is not a good time.

I have my back facing him so he wouldn’t see my tear strained face.

Glenn: (closes the door and sits down by Spencer) What’s wrong with you? Do I need to kick someone’s ass?

Sometimes Glenn and I don’t get along but I love the way he looks after me. He got that from dad.

Spencer: I don’t want to talk about it, and you don’t need to kick anyone’s ass.

Glenn: Come on, Spence what happened?

I don’t know if I really want to open up to him about this. He has never been to comfortable with me being gay, but at least he’s trying.

Spencer: It’s about a girl.

Glenn: You have come to the right person then. You know I’m a stud with the ladies.

Spencer: (smiles and turns to face Glenn) You’re such a jerk.

Glenn: Maybe, but I’m a jerk who is ready to listen.

I told Glenn everything that happened and he stayed attentive all the way through.

Glenn: Wow, you got burned.

Spencer: (sarcastically) Thanks Glenn.

Glenn: Oh no I didn’t mean it like that. Listen Spence, it happens to everyone, even me believe it or not. Don’t be so hard on yourself. And I hate to be the one to tell you this but Ashley is straight. Her boyfriend is on the basketball team with me.