I just got home from our spontaneous walk and now I wish I would have just stayed in. Damn her and those eyes that can get me to do anything. I can’t even stomach Ashley right now, how sick is that. I had no idea that I would feel this way. Seeing the woman I love, in love with someone else. It fucking hurts. I know the looks and the smiles and glances only meant for certain eyes and unfortunately I am not on the receiving end. This isn’t helping. Why the hell did I decide to start a journal anyway?

-Aiden
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It’s been a few days since I realized that my stomach and Ashley don’t get along and I have been held up in my office playing the saddest songs over and over. Spencer justs asks me if I’m okay and I tell her I’m fine and she goes to bed. It’s been like that for the past two nights. I think maybe some new tunes will help me out of this funk a little. She’s gonna start getting too suspicious if I don’t come out of this soon.

Aiden walks over to the radio and turns it on flipping through the radio stations. After not finding anything good he just put on one of the preset stations and just waited through the commercials.

A promotion for a Fall Out Boy concert and a few car commercials later they got on with the music. Kinda girly music but I can work with this I guess. It can’t hurt any, right.

Aiden laid back on the bed as the song played and let the words drift through the room.

Lying here looking in your eyes
Thinking ‘bout what we did last night
And How your family blew my mind
Your touch to your tender kiss
Couldn’t take you breathing in my ear
Just being with you made me realize

And everytime I see you baby I fall in love over again
So proud that you are my man
And I still can’t, can’t get you out of my head
You’re all I’ve ever wanted and you just gotta know that

She cant do the things I do to you
No one is loving you the way, the way I love you
She can’t be everything you need and what you need is me
Cause its the way I love you