“Spencer calm down, this was me. I don’t want your first time to be some rushed thing,”

                “Then go slow,” I answered impatiently, making her smile as she kissed me but pulled away before she got sucked in again.

                “No, I want you to be completely ready,”

                “Ash, I am completely ready, do you know how long I’ve wanted you?” I asked, pulling her down into another kiss. She moaned against my lips and carefully lowered herself so that her body was covering mine. I groaned in frustration when she pulled away again and she chuckled as she stared down at me.

                “I just don’t want you to ever regret this.” She sounded earnest and I frowned as I reached up to push her hair out of her face.

                “I could never regret being with you Ashley, you’re my best friend and I want this more than you can imagine.” Her smile was huge as she kissed me again and this time she didn’t pull away except to breathe and to remove the necessary items of clothing. When we were both naked she looked down at me with something unintelligible shining in her eyes. I started to cover myself but she quickly grabbed my wrists and pulled them away.

                “You are magnificent,” She whispered, kissing a line down the valley between my breasts.

                “Spencer, I don’t think that I can do this.” Ashley said, as she finally stopped pacing. I looked at her in confusion as she kneeled at the end of the bed, a safe distance away from me.

                “What’s wrong?”

                “I’ve seen this happen too many times before,”

                “What?” I asked, completely confused. She frowned and I saw one tear run down her cheek and suddenly I forgot the fact that all I needed was her between my legs as I crawled towards her to pull her into a hug. She wrapped her arms around my waist and buried her head in my shoulder as she cried. I rubbed her back and pulled us backwards so that we were on our sides, facing each other and she was curled into me, just letting the silent tears fall. She drifted off after a while as I held her and I was content to just lay there with her until she woke up.