Finally, we started to actually do something in our PE class, I feel on my ass trying to outrun a girl, it was humiliating to say the least, people talked about it even with me in the room with them. So, say I was embarrassed would be an understatement. While my class went to the portables to do some work, that’s were I finally knew her name, Ashley. Ashley Davies. I think it suits her perfectly, it just rolls off your tongue don’t you think. I finally knew the name of the girl, who had captivated me and stolen my heart in less than a second. I didn’t even think about Ashley and Kyla having the same last name, I was just so ecstatic to finally know her name.

A couple of days had passed and my class was playing kickball in our PE class. I got out because the caught my ball. I was standing against a pole watching the rest of the class play when she came to stand next to me. Hey, you kick yet, she asked like we had known each other forever. I had never spoken to her directly. Only once when she thought that she had spit on me, which she hadn’t, while she was spitting on her friend. She had apologized to me and hit her friend, I just told her it was ok, too shocked to even come up with anything else to say. Anyways, I couldn’t believe she was talking to me, me of all people. On the outside I was calm, but on the inside I was screaming. Yeah, was my only response back. How was it? She asked me. I just laughed and calmly responded, not good. We shared a laugh and then she left as if she had never been there in the first place. I wish I could have said more, or done something to make her stay. So, here I was in love with the one person I probably would never have.

I know that I shouldn’t but her locker is right on the end of the room, you always pass it on your way out of the locker room. I can’t help, but look at her when body on my way out while she is changing. She is just so beautiful, her body is magnificent, she is a goddess, no doubt about it. God, she is just so perfect. She is incredible, I am just so in love with her, it scares me how fast I have fallen for this girl. She has only spoken to me once, and I am already completely captivated with her. Everything is perfect about her from her eyes to her lips to her arms to her legs. I even love how she walks and how I can read almost all the expressions on her face. I can never find anything wrong with her. Even when she is angry, all I can think is that she is even hotter when she gets angry.

We were in the portables yet again, just working on some worksheets. Well, I was working, but she was talking to her friends, two seats ahead and one seat to the left of me. That is when I heard something I wish I had never heard. That is when the words boyfriend flew out of her mouth. Meaning not gay, I never expected her to be gay, but I was still hoping that she would prove me wrong. I continued to work as if I hadn’t heard a word she had spoken. The one word that made sure she would never be mine. Outside, I seemed the same like nothing had changed, but inside, I felt nothing , nothing at all while I was in that class. Yet again, if you have missed my introduction, my name is Spencer Carlin, and my life has gone straight to hell yet again.