“I do but do I really have to start on it my first day at a new school you know how new meds work with me they either make me really sleepy or really hyper”. Today was going to be a new start for me and her.

“I know it sucks but it needs to be done you know the other med was making you not get sleep at night. As for it making you sleepy or hyper if you get really sleepy your gonna come back here and sleep in the bed in the other room ok all your teachers know that your starting on something new”. I just nod my head it still sucks.

“Hey now you have to talk baby I don’t read minds what’s wrong”. she’s so sweet some time I wonder if I deserve her.

“I I had a dream last night”. I don’t even get to finish before the tears fall and I’m being pulled in to a hug

“Oh baby it was just a dream that’s all it was ok just a dream he cant hurt you any more I made sure of that sweetie”.

“But it fills so real some times I see you and Jaime dieing and it just makes me fill messed up”. Ashley just pulls me in closer to her.

“I know babe but there just dreams noting more ok” Ash always gets this way when I have a dream.

“I know”. Ash dry’s the tears from my face and places a kiss on my forehead.

“Baby what I do I tell you after you have a dream like this”.

“You tell me that there just dreams and that I need to be strong for myself and strong for Jaime”. I just hope I can stay strong for them.

“And what do I say when you say you cant be strong”.

“You say that you’ll be strong for me and hold me will I cry”.

“That’s right baby girl I’ll be strong for all of us you, me, and are beautiful baby Jaime”. Ashley’s just looking in my eyes and I’m looking in hers to and all I can see is love.

“I’m Sorry you know for what happened” . That was the one mistake that I wish I didn’t do but I wouldn’t give Jaime up for the world.