“I…I’m sorry…Oh God, Greenlee.  I…don’t…*****…I…I should just go.  I’m really sorry.  I…damn…I should…” Kendall stammers as tears start pouring down her cheeks.

“You…um…that…uh…you should maybe take next week off…you…um deserve it.  Yeah…I’ll see you after New Year’s….It…it’s…um…”  Greenlee stutters out her hand at her lips.

“I’m sorry…please…I…” 

“It’ll be…okay…you should go…” Greenlee turns around.

Kendall reaches out towards her, but drops her hand and runs out the door.  She runs down the hall and into her own room.  She throws things around the room screaming before she collapses onto the bed.

“What were you thinking?!  What were you doing?!  She just wanted a kiss on the cheek and you maul her!  You just pull her to you and crush the only thing you did have with her.  Now, she won’t want anything at all to do with you.  *****!  She just gave you a week off…you’ll be fired when you go in…you deserve every bad thing anyone has ever wished on you.  You are an evil *****!”  She screams out loud.  ‘I’m sorry, Greenlee. I love you.  I never meant to hurt you.’  Her mind repeats over and over as she falls into a fitful sleep.

Greenlee sits in her slip on her bed looking at the remains of their dinner.  It was a wonderful night.  She holds herself tight hugging her own body to keep it from shaking as she cries.

“Why did I have to push so much on a superstition?  Everything was wonderful.  Then, Kendall Hart kissed me like there wasn’t ever going to be a tomorrow.  What was she doing?!  What was I doing?!  Leo, at first it was you in my mind that I was kissing, but it was like you were telling me no and then it was Kendall and it felt so right, but it can’t be!  It just can’t be.  I love you, Leo, but…” she trails off into tears.

‘What was I thinking kissing Kendall like that… a woman…not Leo.  What was I doing?!’  Her mind cries out, ‘You were letting someone love you and it felt wonderful.’  Her mind answers, ‘NO!  I can’t let it happen.  It would be a betrayal to Leo.’  She argues with herself until she too falls into a restless sleep.

TBC…