Yes,

She does fall down many times,

But no, she’s not weak,

No, she’s not frail,

She gets up every time.

Sometimes she needs help

Other times there is no one to assist

And she climbs up all by herself.

I found her like that one night

She said she didn’t want to take my hand,

Couldn’t trust that I’d really stand so still.

Yet, honey, that’s the catch right there,

I’m anything but still

Beside you there are rocking waters

Inside of me.

I’m wavering, I’m…

A wavering sea.

Though, sleep is far from me

I’ve see the hideous face in her nightmares

Like looking through a mirror

It’s only natural that she feel this

Fear accumulating, building up,

Firing inside her chest

Unable to trust

That I’d stand so still…

Yet, I’m not so unshakable,

Honey,

By your side rocking waters

Sway my soul

Never did have much self control

And at the same time

I find that you are a harbor

Keeping me steady

As I’d never felt before

I’m wavering, I’m

A wavering sea.

Have to go

Search for this dark side

That has been forever with me

Where did it originate from?

Is there hope

If I break away?

Believe it or not,

For the first time

I don’t want it to end

With blood-stained sheets.