It was a nice day today for Forks, overcast but sunny. No rain, thank goodness. I didn't want to leave until I had to, and rain would make me have to because otherwise I would have a large vampire search party out for me. Plus that would mean leaving Jacob. I didn't want to leave Jacob yet.

Dammit! What has come over me? Why can't I stop thinking about him? He's staring again… ack! Avert his gaze… avert his gaze!

"Ness… are you okay? You're scaring me a little…" Jacob said to me, seriously worried. I guess I was thinking too hard and he could tell.

"Me? Nothing's wrong. Not a thing. I'm A-OK. Never better!" I tried to assure him. Rambling isn't very convincing, though.

"You're like your mother. You're an awful liar."

"Just have a lot on my mind, that's all." I hope he buys that…

"Sure… if you say so." He wasn't buying it, but he wasn't prodding me, either. I guess I can deal with that for now.

We just walked side by side down the beach, not saying anything after that point. I looked around and found what I was looking for – a clean, dry stone. I casually walked over to it and placed my flip-flops, sunglasses, and skirt on it. I could feel him staring at me while I took off my skirt and folded it up, but I did my best to annoy it. I actually kind of liked it. Not about to admit that to him, though.

"That water's been calling for me since we got here," I turned to him, smiling. "You're welcome to join me, if you'd like." I smiled at him again. Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes!

"Sure! Sounds like fun." He smiled at me. I suddenly felt my heartbeat quicken (if that was even possible – it was already quite fast) and my knees buckle a little.

What is this!?

I ran to water's edge, letting the cold water run over my feet. A swim will clear my head. I walked out until it got to about my thigh and dove under the water. Unlike the rest of my family, I couldn't stay under indefinitely. Although at this point, I wish I could. It felt wonderful.