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    Ashes, ashes… Chapter 5

    Story written on November 12, 2005 by fanficchick.
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    Story Shortlink: https://www.assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=57607
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    Tina didn’t even have time to focus on Helena‘s face, let alone allow herself to process the reality of the other woman’s presence in front of her, before she was drawn into a protective embrace.

     

    “I’m so sorry,” Helena murmured, her soft exhale warm against Tina’s cheek.

     

    Hesitating only a moment, Tina reached around Helena‘s waist, returning the hug and resting her head on the Helena‘s shoulder.

     

    “What are you doing here?  How did you–”

     

    “Don’t let’s worry about that right now,” Helena said quietly, smoothing Tina’s hair.

     

    Tina only nodded in response, content not to worry or question anything for a little while.  Tina considered mentioning that Helena‘s perfume was the same, and that she had always thought that the fragrance suited her so well.  But the idea of talking felt like too much effort.  And suddenly, all that Tina wanted to do was stand there in the circle of Helena‘s arms.

     

    “May I come in?” Helena finally asked, not letting go.

     

    “Yes.  Of course.”  Tina reluctantly stepped back and led the way inside her apartment.  As she looked around, trying to imagine it through fresh eyes, the rooms suddenly felt unnaturally and harshly empty.  It was the kind of thing that she knew Helena would notice.  But the only thing Helena said, was, “How about I make us some tea?”

     

    Helena moved around the small kitchen as if she’d been in it a hundred times.  She was boiling water and steeping tea and then somehow, Tina was on the couch with a hot cup of chamomile in her hands.  They sipped in silence for a few moments, sitting next to each other but not quite touching. 

     

    “You’re too thin, Darling,” Helena said, gently stroking Tina’s cheek with the back of her hand.  “Even for Los Angeles.”

     

    Tina smiled just a bit and shook her head, and Helena put down her cup and reached around Tina’s shoulders.

     

    “Do you want to talk?  You don’t have to.  But if you want to, I’d like to hear.”

     

    “You already know everything important.  That’s why you’re here, right?”

     

    “Me knowing and you telling me are very different.”

     

    Tina chewed her lower lip absently, then blew across the top of her cup.  “One night she went to sleep.  And never woke up.”

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    3. so fucking sad…Bette should be the one conforting Tina and vice versa..they need each other but now is hard to accept this..thanks for the chapter

    4. i think i’m with albeez, i so love your writing, but this is so hard and i need ‘comfort enough’ to confort me, don’t ever remove it from the site…poor tina…i do like the way helena is handling it, but i think tina also need to face bette and try to handke it together…is bette still in LA?

    5. It’s so very hard to read this story through the brimming tears…but it’s still SO good. I’m riveted and can’t wait to see what happens… Keep up the good, if heartbreaking, work. Make us feel better FFC!!!

    7. WTF…? Why is HELENA comforting Tina. Is this going to be a story about these two? Just let me know now instead of having me agonize over the idea of Tina and Helena together. Blach! This story is indeed very sad and quite emotional, and I wonder how you’ll get Tina to ever see the light at the other end of the tunnel. But if that light comes from the likes Helena (said with the most disdain I can muster), after all that she did to break Bette and Tina apart, then I don’t know what I’ll do, except nothing because this is just fan fiction… Yeah, I’ll do nothing but sulk, pout and not be happy what so ever, but I’ll still be a loyal reader, of course. Damn.

    8. You are doing a marvelous job with this. I feel Tina’s grief and pain. Somehow, you must bring Bette back to Tina so that they can help each other through this. This is not Helena’s place to be with Tina, it is Bette’s only. Thanks.

    10. ffc, i totally love this story…so gently, but powerfully written!! Tina does need comforting and Bette isn’t in the right place now to give it..From reading past chapters, Bette is in massive denial and or self preservation mode (repressing it) and something major needs to happen if she is to get or move “through” it anytime soon, if at all, and to me, its even possible that nothing will help her…so heartbreakingly sad that this maybe her (Bette’s) “stuck in a moment” kindof thing!!Kinda likin’ helena in this one, lovin’ shane!!

    14. Your ability to evoke emotion is second to none, I’m sure of this as I sit here with the tears to prove it. This is absolutely heartbreaking but I know Tina will be OK in the end as long as you’re doing the telling. Thanks for writing.

    15. Thank you for posting again so soon. This story is so gut wrenching, I don’t know if I could take “sitting” with the feelings that each chapter forces out of me, for days or weeks at a time. Your writing is so pure…not a wasted word…not a wasted thought. Have you finished that screenplay yet? :)

    16. I can’t really explain how sad this story makes me feel, i’m with the minority who think it’s a good thing that Helena is there for Tina, although i’m a tibetter, I can see clearly how Bette and Tina can’t comfort one another, not in this story.. Thank you, great writing..

    19. Damn this is so fucking sad and hope this is not happen in season 3. Wow Helena comfort Tina, that’s unbievable, hope Bette will come and talk to Tina and they will go through it together. Ok post soon please, thanks!

    21. Well, I managed to just about read this chapter through the tears! Tina needs to take strength from someone, and as much as I guess we would like that person to be Bette, I for one don’t care who it is, as long as she gets the help she needs to get through this. I hope Helena can help Tina to start the recovery process. Amazing writing as ever FFC. Thanks

    22. helena nice did i say that out loud!!!!!!!!!!! bette can’t be their right now please let her start to deal with this before it breaks her and they need to realize that is how bette deals with things and not abandon her

    23. this is so beautiful!!!and i can so picture Helena being like that. She really wasnt as evil as I thought the first time i saw the eps.Beautiful writing! it brought tears!!!

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