I had been awake for some time, just staring at the objection of my affection. I realized that I had missed these moments more than I thought possible.

Although I couldn’t see Tina’s face that didn’t stop my mind from running away with itself. The creamy skin that adorned my bed, the way she contrasted perfectly against the soft satin sheets. She would always be the definition of beautiful and more. Because that one simple word to describe her beauty was merely not enough not now, or ever.

My mind kept telling me this was dream, but my heart knew otherwise. The beating came naturally and increased the more Tina occupied my thoughts. Her shallow breaths and light snore filled the room, although they were quiet it was a secret on all on there own. This was it. The love I felt with such a rush, a flare of emotions somehow. Who ever knew one person could make you feel this way; crazy and sane all at the same time.

I was careful not to wake her but my fingers wanted, no needed to make contact with her skin. The softness of my touch where my fingers barely grazed her back. But somehow it was just enough to feel content. All of my worries slowly deteriorating as I let my heart feel that it could accomplish everything it sought. I closed my eyes letting myself reel at the delicate skin under my finger tips. Something I couldn’t explain how powerless I felt, letting go of the past and all the wrong doing I had done. But I couldn’t let go of one thing, the pain I had caused her by cheating.

I knew I had to let go of the way I treated her and the majority of the things I’d done. But this was too big of a forgiveness, I wasn’t sure I could expect Tina too if I was having a hard time doing so.

The stirring of her body as Tina wrapped herself within the sheets. I even let myself smile as my body took a harsh withdrawal to the coolness of the air.
My eyes opened quickly and closed just as fast. The harshness of the light causing me to block out the sunlight. I could feel her eyes on me, slowly watching my every move. In my revelation I had not noticed Tina’s body now faced me.