Shane:

As you can see, I am back home. After you were discharged from the hospital, I stuck around for a few days, trying to think of what I could say to you. Then it occurred to me, that I couldn’t say anything to make this situation better. What can I say now? I messed up. The night of your wedding, I was only thinking of myself. As I always do. I’ve never been a really good father. I think I’m doing the right things, saying the right things, but it always ends up coming out wrong. I never meant to hurt you. Please believe that. Carmen is a wonderful woman. You deserve someone who will make you happy, and I could see that in your eyes. A part of me was jealous of you. Yes, jealous. You were determined to make it work with Carmen. You were determined to be a good person in spite of how you were brought up. Looking at me, I was the worst example on how to treat the ones you love. I don’t know what else to say except that I’m sorry. And that I hope you don’t turn out like me. I want better for you. What I said in the bar that night, it wasn’t true. You don’t have to be like me. You have a lot of love in you Shane, don’t throw away the opportunity to be happy. Don’t turn out like your old man – going from woman to woman, disregarding people’s feelings. Be better than me. I wish you all the best. I hope you are well. And one of these days, I hope you can forgive me.