Chapter 1

It was a morning that seemed to start no different that all the others they have been sharing. Candace and Bette where in the throws of morning fucking. As had become customary in their relationship, Candace was going down on Bette. It had almost become a morning routine but this morning Bette realized this was not where she wanted to be, certainly not who she wanted to be with. She found herself distracted, not giving Candace her full attention as Candace tried to lick her to her orgasm.

After all the turmoil of her relationship with Tina, the stress of the job and the loss of the baby, it felt good to have someone else take control. Someone else to be on top, so to speak. She did not need to be director, provider, in control. All she had to do was relax and get her physical needs met . But it was becoming old. The relationship was not meeting her emotional and intellectual needs. She could not go on anymore like this. She was missing Tina’s touch and kiss. She missed taking care of Tina’s every need. She needed to be needed by Tina. She needed to be loved by Tina. Her world was not right.

This was Bette Porter, provider for all her partner’s needs. Who she had become as she escaped her stress and pain was not Bette Porter. She needed to end this and try to get Tina back so they could get their lives back together. She needed to work on what made them great. What made them the center piece of their circle of friends. Bette liked order and structure in her life and being in bed with Candace for the past several weeks was not meeting that need either.

She was isolated from her friends. No one called her. She called no one. Especially not Tina. Tina told her not to call her unless it was totally over with Candace. She was not one to share and wait for Bette to sort it out. Bette turned to Candace in a time of weakness and loneliness. At that time she needed Candace. She needed to escape. She needed to be taken care of. She and Tina were suffering from lesbian bed death. They had not been intimate very much for several years. They would go for months at a time without sexual contact. Candace was an escape for her. She was a return of that new person sexual energy. When you feel like you could have sex anytime, anywhere. She had that with Candace She was missing that with Tina.