Im Into You…Not The Badge You Have To Wear- Chapter 19 FINAL!!!!!!!!!

Previously-

I don’t know I guess I see the way she is with her kids she’s great with them; she loves them both so much. And I want to be apart of that but I just know that I can’t be apart of it. Because they already have two parents I cant come between that. I love Lena I do so much I guess its weird but I know that I want to spend the rest of my life with her and have our own family. A huge family none the less but I know she’s what makes me happy.

Tears trickle down Tina’s face
OOooo Liv that’s beautiful. Im so happy for you both you know that right?! The only thing left to do is tell her how you feel.

Yes I know that, don’t worry Tine you don’t need to say that every time ok. I don’t know how to tell her but I know I’ll find a way. Talking about me telling Lena how I feel I could say the same thing about you with Bette.

It’s not that easy I don’t want to make things worse between me and her. She has Jodi and she’s happy how can I take that away from her. If I couldn’t make her happy at least someone else can.

It’s not that easy to run away from your feelings and you should know that from your time in Paris. I mean the first time you spoke to Lena you was able to tell her exactly what you felt so why cant you with Bette. If you don’t trust me when I say you will regret it for the rest if your life.

I know but with Bette I loved her I mean still do, always have done. It’s hard to tell Bette how I feel when I see her I can never get what I truly mean across. She’s beautifully intoxicating; I like the fact when im around her that it’s me and her against the world. I’ve never felt so safe and secure with anyone before in my life, I know I can’t let her go. My heart will remain with her till the day I die but her happiness comes before my own and that’s how it will stay.

Tine, when Helena gets back from getting us our coffee I’m gonna get her to talk some sense into you.

They both laugh as Helena approaches the table

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Tina grabbed her phone from her jacket pocket and decided she needed to talk to Bette. Helena and Olivia were right if she didn’t talk to Bette about how she was feeling then she might regret it for the rest of her life. She wanted to unload her feelings and put them on the table to present to Bette regardless of if she was not reciprocated the way she would like it to.

Can we talk? It’s really important
Tina

Bette looked at her phone as she sat at the dining table; she had so desperately wanted to talk to Tina when she returned from Paris. But instead Tina seemed cold and distant towards her, she missed her. Communication was still her greatest barrier with Jodi and with Tina she just didn’t communicate at all. Bette wanted to be able to enjoy a nice long talk with Tina and tell her all the things she never did.

When? Now?
Bette

Now!
T

Tina and Bette both drove to a secluded little dinner about 20 minutes away from The Planet. No interruptions, no time to bail, no excuses this was time to gather either closure or reqaint love between these two women.

Tina was already waiting for Bette outside the diner for her to arrive; she knew it was now or never or realistically to forever hold her peace. With her new found confidence from Helena and Olivia she spoke out loud of what she should say, but nothing seemed to come out right. Then Bette pulls up by the sidewalk locking up the car, and locking her arm around Tina to bring her into a tight embrace. They slowly make there way into the diner and order some coffee.

“Bette I, I don’t know how to say this but I don’t say this now I know I will regret it. I’m sorry about the hurt I caused you by running away to Paris how I did and for how long I did. I was confused and hurt; I just kept burying my feelings in the sand, and found my self reaching out for love in all the wrong places”.

Bette tried to interrupt but Tina overrode her words and simply carried on

“I truly am sorry, I will always love you, and you and Angie are my family. And it hurts me that I did this to us I broke up our family. I just wanted you to know I’m still in love with you.”

As those words slipped out stammered and muddled up she quickly looked at Bette’s eyes to see her reaction.
She seemed calm, maybe to calm like she was over Tina and that part of her life. Bette pursed her lips together as she let her eyes studying Tina’s face across from her.

“T, I don’t know what to say. I have been wanting to talk to you since you got back but you have been avoiding me. Although I know this might sound ridiculous I got with Jodi out of loneliness and on the rebound from you. I didn’t think you was coming back. I thought you might need a week or two to work out your feelings. But T, it was 4 fucking long months in which every day I would care for our daughter all I could see was you and that you were absent from both of our lives. You hurt me so much T, I thought I was going to die from a broken heart but when you came back to L.A the first time I seen you, I just knew I was still in love with you and still am. I just cant help myself when it comes to you Tina, it has and will always be you.” Bette took a few deep breaths as tears trickled down her cheekbones. She looked up from her coffee placed in her hands and continued…

“I broke up with Jodi about 3 weeks ago, she knew I still was in love with you. So when you have seen us together we have just been talking about you. She comes by to see Angie they really connected, Angie’s such a quick learner she has learnt quite a few things from Jodi. If we go into this we go in T, with both eyes open. I don’t want to get to this point again where you have to leave town, and think that is the best thing to do. Tina I love, cherish, honour and adore you and our beautiful daughter I want us to be a proper family again.”

“Bette, I I…I’m just want you to be happy, I didn’t realise you had finished with Jodi but I just wanted to tell how I felt then at least you would know and I wouldn’t take those words just to my grave with me. I want us back, our family I should never have walked out on us and what we had. I took everything for granted I see that now. You’re my world and no-one will ever compare to what we have, the feelings that I feel for you will never break.”

But women had tear soaken cheeks whilst they both stood up for a tight embrace Tina planted a firm and sensous kiss on Bette’s lips. The best kiss they had shared between one another, something light but meaningful and full of promises and aspiration for the future.

As Olivia drove home with Helena, she spoke from her heart to a unfamiliar topic between herself and the woman she loved who sat besides her. She cleared her throat and prepared for her feelings to be uncovered.

“English Rose, you know I love you with all my heart well I want to talk to you about something really important okay?”

“Yes ok” Helena replied wearily.

“I have been thinking a lot lately about how such a great mother you’re to both of yur children, I cant help but want to be involved in that but I know your children have two parents so that would just be too confusing. So it got me thinking that I would love for us to extend our family.”

“fuck, really Liv? I mean this would be a huge step for us you know that right? I didn’t ever think you would want to have kids with me, I have no idea why.”

“why wouldn’t I want to have children with you, you are the apple of my eye and I love you dearly and I want tt express our love by extending our family. I know you went through a lot with Winnie and the children but I promise you this time around things would be different, my love.”

“Wow you have really been thinking about this haven’t you? Do you think we could cope? I mean that would mean like 3 children for me, I love you with all my heart darling. And in all honesty I would love to have more children and now I have found you my life feels so complete.”

“Well you know you have me until the end of time, so that’s it were going to have a baby together. You make me feel like the luckiest woman on this planet everyday when you’re here beside me”

“I guess it is Liv.I bet you never knew this but I was always into you…and not the badge you wore. It was always something more than the uniform, love at first sight.” Helena’s eyes let the tears of happiness take her by surprise and fall as she looked lovingly into Olivia’s eyes this was the beginning of forver.

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Helena and Olivia, decided that they simply couldn’t wanit to start a family so they had gone through a sperm bank and insemination and 10months later Ebony-Rose was born. They both had talked it through that Olivia would be the birth mother, it wasn’t a hard choice for Helena to come to this conclusion.
Ebony-Rose weighed a healthy 7lb and 2oz. Alice had taken a keen liking to the new born addition she felt like this was a blessing in disguise it helped her get through the break up with Tasha she was able to put all her heartbreak into something else.

Helena was over-joyed and she felt closer to Olivia than she ever had before. The name was a hard decision but not for Olivia she knew she wanted something that would represent Helena as her child’s mother also. Rose was an obvious choice and Ebony well they had both agreed on. It had been the only name they agreed on so lucky they had a baby girl.

Ebony-Rose was now coming up to 4years old and now there was a new addition to the family 12 weeks old Imogen-Rose, Helena life was hectic but it was chaotic bliss in her eyes. Her beautiful wife Olivia her 2 little girls and then there was her older children Wilson and Jang-Ying.

Life had changed for the better that day Olivia woke up in the hospital. Everything was as it ought to be. Life was perfect, and lets say Bette and Tina had been looking for that something to draw themselves back to one another. And had adopted a child together his name was Junior and true reflection of how their relationship had progressed in the years of their reunion. And both couple now lived next door to one another, and over thought decision but in so many ways it helped both couples remain close. It was like something from a cheesy movie they would all laugh as they would watch their children run around their feet uncontrollably, Helena and Olivia couldn’t be happier and their relationship was solid. Whilst Bette and Tina went from strength to strength everyday and their relationship was so much more complex and loving how time had changed all these women.

Thanks for holding out for this one but its over now thanks for reading.

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