Psychological pleasure I guess I thought you dont care anymore Bette said, lighting a new cigarette.

Youre right I dont care. I should not care about what you do Tina said, leaning back.

You know, science say a cigarette a day loses like 3 minutes of your life. I smoke 2 packs a day so thats 40 sticks of cigarette. So everyday I lose 120 minutes of my life. Bette said

So Tina said, not really caring.

Nothing. Just sharing what I learned. Bette said

Bette, why are you doing this? Tina asked.

What the smoking? Bette said, finishing off her cigarette.

This its not you Bette Tina said, showing slight concern.

The night that you left, you implied that I had nothing to lose. I am showing you that I lost something which makes me do something out of character and besides, its just smoking. Its not a moral issue. Bette said. Finally breakfast arrived and Tina started to eat. Bette just watched her eat.

Are you going to eat? Tina asked. Tina heard from Shane that Bette has not been eating and that she has been smoking, drinking and doing drugs.

Did you ever wonder why we stopped coming here? We used to do this every weekend Bette asked. Tina did not answer.

I never stopped coming here Bette told her. The view here was something that made me feel so light. It helped carried away the burden, anger and pain that I was carrying. I had no one to talk to anyway

You could have talked to me. We were married Tina told her.

I did but you pushed me away. When I wanted to make love to you, you pushed me away. I wanted to so much to open up to you but you wouldnt let me in. I dont know why. I tried reaching out for you, you still wouldnt let me in. The miscarriage, I wanted to share that burden with you but you pushed me.

SO you went to ***** that Candace coz she could let you in literally I might add Tina said

No. Candace made the burden heavier. With the burden I was already carrying, it overpowered my senses. She got me at my weakest state. Thats how I was able to surrender. I couldnt help myself. I was falling off in the edge of oblivion Bette said, eyes starting to water.

Look Bette, I am so sorry about my attitude right now. I dont understand why youre doing this. In fact, you have no right to do this! We are getting a divorce in case you forgot. Tina said.

Im sorry Bette said. Dont worry, Im going to sign it

You know, youre making me feel like everything is my fault. Youre the one who cheated Tina said.

Im sorry

Sorry wont get you anywhere. I dont care about what happened before us but the thing is, you cheated on me Bette. We were fine before that.

No. We werent. But you right, I was the one who cheated. What happened before that is nothing compared to what I did. I just wish youd let me in. Bette said, taking a big drag of smoke.

Tina wondered about what Bette said. She knew they had a problem before Bette cheated. She just didnt want to think that its what caused Bette to cheat.

I brought this along with me in case things dont go well between us today. I was supposed to return this to you on Friday but seeing how angry or hurt you are and seeing that we wont go anywhere anyway, here it is. Bette said, with her voice cracking. She handed Tina the envelope of signed divorce paper. Tina just looked at it and felt such pain in her heart. I never realized how bad this hurt until she actually signed it. I cant believe its over. Tina thought.

Cant we just enjoy the time we have left as married couple? Bette said. We wont be married anymore once you give that to your lawyer. Tina just sat there quietly.

T? Bette said, getting her attention. Im pregnant

All Tina could do is stare at her and thought.. and you’re smoking?