Ok Alice, stay calm you can do this. Its only Dana for god sakes. Yeah the same Dana that turned you into a clingy psychotic. Shut up Alice, what did Helena say about putting the past behind you. Oh god, she looks so beautiful i cant stand it.

“Um Alice, can we talk about what you over heard tonight.”

“Dana really theres no need to explain. I mean you were upset and probably confused i…..”

“Alice, i wasnt confused. What i said was the truth, i want you and i always have.”

“But”

“But nothing, i was an idiot. I got scared and ran away from the one person i should have been holding on to. I’ve never had to deal with proper relationship stuff and it freaked me out. I thought we would get together and it would be just perfect. No arguements or problems, but life doesnt work out like that and i couldnt handle it. This is all my fault and i want to make it better.”

“Dana, this is not your fault. I was so clingy and insecure, i would’ve freaked out the saneist of people.”

“No Alice it wouldnt. Jesus i’ve known you for 8 years. I was your best friend, i should have known how insecure you were. I was just to caught up in my own dramas to realise.”

“No you weren’t. I kept my insecurities hidden for 20 years i was good at it.”

“Maybe, but the signs were there. I mean the way you acted around Gabby for a start.”

“I dont know why i was like that with her. I didnt love her, damn i found it hard to like her at times. I suppose it was because deep down i always loved you, but thought it would never happen. I was trying to force something with Gabby to replace you.”

“You’ve always loved me?”

“Yeah, i may not have realised it but i’ve loved you from the moment i met you.”

“Really, so have i. Alice every time you went back to Gabby it felt like my heart was being ripped out. I hated the fact that you went back to her because you felt that was all you were worth. Just someone to pick up and throw away when the urge took her. To see you so upset afterwards would devestate me. I should have seen the insecurities then, but i didnt. I got together with you totally blind and in the end i was no better than Gabby.”