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    The Very Thought of You, Chapter 9

    Story written on February 6, 2007 by NYGayLady.
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    Story Shortlink: https://www.assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=64380
    Author Notes:

    Talking to you makes me feel whole, and that worries me.

                Two days later the envelope came.  I took it up to my room, shutting the door firmly behind me.  As I tore it open, I was greeted by her flowing handwriting.  In the silence, I began to read.

    Dearest T,

    Do you know that, if it were possible, I would be at your side, doing everything in my power to get you away from him?  Do you know I would openly woo you, unafraid of what he’d say or think?  Do you know that I would persist until I was the one you were going home with, until I was the one you thought of last at night, every night, and not just when you’re lonely?  Do you have any idea how many little things I would do to work my way into your heart?  I would make you want me, make you want my company more than his.  There would be a myriad of little surprises, a million little ways I would find to take your breath away.  I would show you how beautiful and romantic life can be if you’re with the right person.  I would sweep you off of your feet everyday.  And, with this distance between us, with the obstacles present, I will still try to show you glimpses of what you’re missing by not being with me.  I’m not ashamed to love a woman who belongs to someone else, not ashamed to use whatever means possible to try to steal some of your thoughts from being focused on him.

    All of this goes against who I am and what I believe.  But, somehow, where this situation is concerned, it all seems too important to inhibit myself with worrying about someone else when what I want is right in front of me.  You are the first one who has ever been able to eradicate my guilt and make me disregard boundaries.  He is on his own.  All’s fair in love… and all that.

    Meet me in New York.  Meet me by Bethesda Fountain.  Meet me in that oasis in the biggest city in America.  Spend the day with me, and let me show you what it could be like if you gave me a chance.  Let me show you how much I love you.  Better yet, meet me, and look into my eyes; see it for yourself.  Let me show you that could be it, that you could be all that matters to me, the person I live for.  That you could be home.  Let me show you how wonderful it could be, how you could still have everything you want with me.  We want the same things; we fit so well.  Let me show you.  Spend the day wandering the city with me.  Gently take my hand unexpectedly as we walk down Broadway or through Central Park.  Let us sit down to coffee in a little café and talk about life and ourselves while we finally get to observe how the other’s mouth moves as she speaks.  Let us be able to exchange smiles and shy glances.  Let us discover what it is to look into someone else’s eyes and see your future reflected there.

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    1. NY, since I have told you often enough you know how this story affects me. Bette opened her heart and soul up to Tina in that love letter. It was just beautiful. Please continue on with this wonderful story and as always thank you.

    7. I first want to thank you for such a thought provoking enchanting tale. It leaves me in wonder with each and every chapter you post. I am not so such that Tina is unsympathetic as she just hasn’t lost anything of value yet. The dream is still alive as far as she is concerned. It shows how perfect a relationship can be when it’s left to the imagination and not tested in the natural progression of real life. I love the risk your Bette is taking it’s breath taking how much she has put on the line. Get some sleep and dream of the next chapter Thanks for all your efforts.

    8. damn tina!you have to meet bette how can you not?bette is poring out her heart/soul is there a such thing as a perfect life out there.tina you know you want too (SUCK IT UP)DO IT! p.p.s.

    9. Absolutely amazing. Its sad how fear of taking a chance can stagnate a person. Tina obviously thinks the straight life with the house and 2.5 kids is the better choice for her or at least the easiest choice to live with. I wonder if she’s ever taken any risk in her life at all. She seems to prefer to fantasize which is fine in the short term, but for 30 year. That’s just too sad! Bette’s letter was heartfelt and how she could resist, just shows Tina’s strong will to remain passive.

    10. I think I can say that that is the most beautiful and soulful thing I’ve ever read. Not just this chpter but also your author’s notes…They touched me deeply- evidence of a talented and genius writer- thank you for the experience. I’m now your fan for life I think…your wish is my command…

    11. *blink, blink* What the hell, Tina??!!!! You gave up THAT to go for…whatever it is you have now???? I can’t even think of anything to say beyond that.

    12. What a beautiful love letter! I only hope Bette hasn’t been waiting for Tina to come and make her feel whole for the last 30 solid years. Tina sucks, but maybe it’s not too late for her to change her life, even if it isn’t easy… Thanks for posting!

    13. Just re-read everything…girl, you’re amazing! It’s great to see you writing for a change instead of reading! LOL. Keep up the good work and looking forward to your next masterpiece! :-)

    15. You are such a romantic NY and I love that! Wow, Bette really poured her heart out in that letter and I feel saddened that Tina still chose Henry. NY you have me at the highest edge of any mountaintop in the world and I am so much enjoying the torture! Please Post soon! A thought occurred to me that I hope is not true, that Bette might not be alive in the present.

    16. All I know is I would have been on the 1st plane…train…or automobile. At this point Tina wasn’t even married was she? Sigh she is frustrating the hell out of me. It wasn’t like she was a prisoner…people can go to the city for shopping sprees or plays…damn use you imagination woman…make it happen!

    18. Bette’s letter broke my heart as I read it, it really did. And for Tina to still have dragged her feet in the face of such a challenge… I just can’t fathom it. This story is compelling, NY, it’s wonderful, and at the same time, it makes me want to cry.

    20. I continue to love this story, NY… It makes me wonder why Tina had such a hard time letting go of that picture perfect life with Henry, she knows she no longer wants. She seems to know that Bette represents true love and happiness, and that life with Henry could never live up to that. What held her back? Her family? The conventions of modern society? What? Poor Bette… she was so brave in that letter. Ah, the bliss of love letters… LOL… Thanks, NY.

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