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    Fame – (Chapter: Seperate and suffer. Stay together and hurt.)

    Story written on September 30, 2007 by Dreamer.
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    Story Shortlink: https://www.assertive-maroon-jellyfish.104-250-143-187.cpanel.site/?p=15515
    Author Notes:

    The road to recovery…er…or destruction?

    It felt so right being in her arms. Ashley smiled as she pulled back and met tired grey eyes. The smile slid off her face and formed into a frown. She realized how tired Spencer looked and felt bad. Looking away, she stood up and ran a frustrated hand through her hair. She was so sick of herself. It seemed as though tiring Spencer was the only thing she was good at. And it made her feel bad. “Spencer I’m really going to try.” She faced Spencer and sunk to her knees, taking in Spencer’s surprised expression; Ashley smiled softly and took her hand. “I mean it. I’m done with drugs.”

     

    Brown eyes focused solely on the grey ones looking back into hers. Spencer smiled, but it wasn’t all too convincing. Ashley couldn’t help but wonder if Spencer believed her or not. She looked away and bit down on her bottom lip. Could I really give up cocaine? The question seemed simple as it floated through her mind, but it wasn’t. The soft white powder was her life. The only thing that has been keeping her up and running for so long in the music industry. Staring at the floor, Ashley didn’t know if giving it up would be possible or not. Brown eyes closed as Ashley sighed. I guess Spencer isn’t the only one who doesn’t think I can do this.  Feeling a hand cup the side of her face, Ashley opened her eyes and looked up into Spencer’s encouraging features. “I’m glad you want to quit Ashley.” Her smile tightened a little, worrying Ashley. “But-“

    “You don’t think I can do it.” Ashley accused dryly. “But I guess I don’t blame you.” Her shoulders slumped as she moved away from Spencer; sitting with her back against the edge of the bed, she crossed her legs and stared blankly at her arm.  God, the cuts looked terrible and Ashley knew the media would just love them. Her mind was already preparing itself for the bullshit stories that would come from them. 

     

    Hearing the bed shift, Ashley turned her head and watched Spencer sink to the floor next to her. She looked somewhat troubled. “Ashley, it’s not that I don’t think you can do it, It’s just…” Spencer blew out a frustrated breath before continuing. “Are you sure you’re completely finished with cocaine? You’re not going to use on the weekends, when you’re around it, or at some party?”

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    1. i feel so bad for both of them because ashley needs to go to rehab instead of staying on tour where the cocaine is everywhere and spencer is trying but ash needs more than one person helping her…pms

    2. i feel so sad for spencer……….fucking pops he had to go and say some hurtful things to ash…..i agree mike needs to have like an overdose or something….maybe then ash can realize thats where she’s headed herself

    3. It’s torture to see Ashley like this. But still so good. Your writing is amazing. I’m so sad for both Ashley and Spencer. Please make it better and update soon.

    6. Love this story, this reminds me of the scene from “Gia” when Elizabeth Mitchell is begging Angelina Jolie to choose her over the coke, and we all know what happened there

    7. HOLY SHIT DUDE!!! I can’t believe Ashley. You know, I just started to notice that this story is kinda like the movie GIA. You know how Gia (Angelina Jolie) was sooo hooked on drugs that in one scene, Linda (Elizabeth Mitchell) asked Gia to decide what she wanted more, HER of THE DRUGS???? And if you have seen that movie, you know what she chooses!!!!! I hope Ashley will go to rehab and change her ways because she will loose Spencer and all of her FAME!!!! PMS and LOVE THIS STORY!!!!!! GREAT UPDATE!!!!

    9. OH MY GOD!!!! that was awesome. 31 pages!!! it’s official i love you lol. your story is so good, i have to say it is by far my favorite on this site. PMS ASAP

    10. wow i am so mad i just left you the longest comment and it didn’t even go through. Anyways i just basically said that i was so unbelievably moved after reading this update. The only thing that can be said that even comes remotely close is that it is profoundly heartbreaking…perfectly put dallas1111. I have been on all the fanfiction sites and I haven’t read anything like this. I am surprised you don’t post this on spashley.com where you will find the ferrarri’s of all fanfiction writers…you cannot comprehend the amount of love that they will shower you with and they know talent when they see it. i cannot wait for you to post more soon and i know that is asking a lot because this was a 30-sumthing page update but i cannot get enough of you. you’re my cocaine!! Seriously though you are just oozing with talent…so much so that i just tried to type a really long comment exactly the same because it didn’t seem to go through. :0)

    13. PLEASE UPDATE SOON! I miss this fic so much!!! I just realised I havent left a comment for this chap and I feel terrible because it was just so amazing. Please update it… Don’t give up on it!!!

    14. i feel so bad for both of them because ashley needs to go to rehab instead of staying on tour where the cocaine is everywhere and spencer is trying but ash needs more than one person helping her…pms

    15. i feel so sad for spencer……….fucking pops he had to go and say some hurtful things to ash…..i agree mike needs to have like an overdose or something….maybe then ash can realize thats where she’s headed herself

    16. It’s torture to see Ashley like this. But still so good. Your writing is amazing. I’m so sad for both Ashley and Spencer. Please make it better and update soon.

    19. Love this story, this reminds me of the scene from “Gia” when Elizabeth Mitchell is begging Angelina Jolie to choose her over the coke, and we all know what happened there

    20. HOLY SHIT DUDE!!! I can’t believe Ashley. You know, I just started to notice that this story is kinda like the movie GIA. You know how Gia (Angelina Jolie) was sooo hooked on drugs that in one scene, Linda (Elizabeth Mitchell) asked Gia to decide what she wanted more, HER of THE DRUGS???? And if you have seen that movie, you know what she chooses!!!!! I hope Ashley will go to rehab and change her ways because she will loose Spencer and all of her FAME!!!! PMS and LOVE THIS STORY!!!!!! GREAT UPDATE!!!!

    22. OH MY GOD!!!! that was awesome. 31 pages!!! it’s official i love you lol. your story is so good, i have to say it is by far my favorite on this site. PMS ASAP

    23. wow i am so mad i just left you the longest comment and it didn’t even go through. Anyways i just basically said that i was so unbelievably moved after reading this update. The only thing that can be said that even comes remotely close is that it is profoundly heartbreaking…perfectly put dallas1111. I have been on all the fanfiction sites and I haven’t read anything like this. I am surprised you don’t post this on spashley.com where you will find the ferrarri’s of all fanfiction writers…you cannot comprehend the amount of love that they will shower you with and they know talent when they see it. i cannot wait for you to post more soon and i know that is asking a lot because this was a 30-sumthing page update but i cannot get enough of you. you’re my cocaine!! Seriously though you are just oozing with talent…so much so that i just tried to type a really long comment exactly the same because it didn’t seem to go through. :0)

    26. PLEASE UPDATE SOON! I miss this fic so much!!! I just realised I havent left a comment for this chap and I feel terrible because it was just so amazing. Please update it… Don’t give up on it!!!

    29. I don’t log in much anymore, but I have to when I see this. This is the best damn story ever. I always love it, even if I have to wait forever for an update. It always satisfies. Love it babe. Love it!

    30. I don’t log in much anymore, but I have to when I see this. This is the best damn story ever. I always love it, even if I have to wait forever for an update. It always satisfies. Love it babe. Love it!

    31. This last paragraph summed up Spencer’s overwhelmed and broken heart…Time stilled for her as she walked back across the room. She stopped near Ashley and dropped the bag on the floor. She didn’t want to see anything passed that. Instead, she turned back around and grabbed her robe off the floor. She slipped it on and walked out of the door, leaving Ashley with the one thing she loved the most, cocaine. – Everyone needs a girlfriend like Spencer, so understanding, loving, attentive, faithful and forgiving. However, love cannot be one-sided and even though I believe Ashley loves Spencer she loves cocaine more. I believe Spencer did the right thing by walking away, sometimes you have to let go of the things you love the most in order for them to be healing. Ashley needs to hit rock bottom and truly desire to change before she can find freedom from the drugs and alcohol. Until she gets help Spencer will not fall into Ashley’s arms again. This is profoundly moving and heartbreaking story that leaves me wanting more. Thank you for spending so much time writing this very long and amazing update. PMS

    32. This last paragraph summed up Spencer’s overwhelmed and broken heart…Time stilled for her as she walked back across the room. She stopped near Ashley and dropped the bag on the floor. She didn’t want to see anything passed that. Instead, she turned back around and grabbed her robe off the floor. She slipped it on and walked out of the door, leaving Ashley with the one thing she loved the most, cocaine. – Everyone needs a girlfriend like Spencer, so understanding, loving, attentive, faithful and forgiving. However, love cannot be one-sided and even though I believe Ashley loves Spencer she loves cocaine more. I believe Spencer did the right thing by walking away, sometimes you have to let go of the things you love the most in order for them to be healing. Ashley needs to hit rock bottom and truly desire to change before she can find freedom from the drugs and alcohol. Until she gets help Spencer will not fall into Ashley’s arms again. This is profoundly moving and heartbreaking story that leaves me wanting more. Thank you for spending so much time writing this very long and amazing update. PMS

    33. I LOVE this story! It has to be one of the best ones I’ve been following! I agree with what a lot of people have said – Ash needs to hit rock bottom so she can really change. Not only that but I would like to see something happen to Pops as well. He has a 17yr old daughter on drugs and has done jack shit about it for how many years now?!?! To have a father who so clearly doesn’t give a shit about his daughter would be truly heart breaking! He gives Ash shit about not caring about the band – he needs to get his prorities sourted, I could imagine Spencer giving him a hard time about it like she did before but only 1000 times worse. Poor Spencer, she’s going to have to be really strong if her and Ash’s relationship is going to pull through and really it’s not going to happen while Ash is still on tour – she needs to go to Rehab, there aren’t many people out there who can get off coke cold turkey! Thanks so much for posting and for the obvious time and effort you put into each one! Please post again soon!

    34. I LOVE this story! It has to be one of the best ones I’ve been following! I agree with what a lot of people have said – Ash needs to hit rock bottom so she can really change. Not only that but I would like to see something happen to Pops as well. He has a 17yr old daughter on drugs and has done jack shit about it for how many years now?!?! To have a father who so clearly doesn’t give a shit about his daughter would be truly heart breaking! He gives Ash shit about not caring about the band – he needs to get his prorities sourted, I could imagine Spencer giving him a hard time about it like she did before but only 1000 times worse. Poor Spencer, she’s going to have to be really strong if her and Ash’s relationship is going to pull through and really it’s not going to happen while Ash is still on tour – she needs to go to Rehab, there aren’t many people out there who can get off coke cold turkey! Thanks so much for posting and for the obvious time and effort you put into each one! Please post again soon!

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