Love Always –Spence-

I finished reading it with tears in my eyes…then I turned to my piano because that’s all I could ever do when I didn’t know what to do…I’d sing

“She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile
She’ll never notice how you stop and stare whenever she walks by
And you can’t see me wantin you the way you want her
But you are everything to me
And I just wanna show you
She don’t even know you
She’s never gonna love you like I want to
You just see right through me but if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
There’s a fire inside of you that can’t help but shine through
She’s never gonna see the light
No matter what you do
And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be
Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we’re Invisible
I just wanna look in your eyes and make you realize
I just wanna show you she don’t even know you
Baby let me love you let me want you
You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible
She can’t see the way your eyes light up when you smile…”

“that new?” I heard Spencer ask then I turned around and sniffled a little as she stood by my piano

“um…I kinda, just sang it…” I told her “…I’ve been doing that a lot lately…when I have no one to talk to…” she explained

“it was beautiful…” she told me and I looked up at her smiling “…did uh…did you read it?” she asked me

“yeah…I read it…” I told her simply “…I never knew you could write like that…” I added “…as soon as I read ‘if you are a daydream I’ll never get to hold again, at least you’ll know’ I knew I’d cry…”

“you shouldn’t have cried…” she told me “…I mean I knew I had to give it to you sooner or later, but you have Blaire…so was I right? It’s really over?” she asked me then I stood up having my face right by hers looking into her eyes

“I guess so…” I told her knowing I was lying and being stupid not knowing it wasn’t even close to being over, then we both moved in slightly and Blaire flashed through my head and I turned away “…wow” I said to myself