Finally she let me go from her death hug. I smoothed over my clothes. “Jeez, woman, you were squeezing me to death.” “It’s because I love you too much, Spencer.” She said, kissing me on the cheek. “We’re gonna be late, I’ll talk to you later.” She hurried to her next class. I stood there, confused. Did she just say love? Wait, she just said it, but she didn’t mean she was IN love with me, right? Because the truth is, I wasn’t ready to love someone else yet in my opinion. I still had those stupid feelings for Ashley that remained, no matter how much I tried to push them away. English was a total bore. My thoughts wandered off to how I was going to make a perfect dinner for Carmen, with candles and maybe a bit of my parent’s.. wine. I smirked. About a year ago, I’d NEVER have contemplated doing such a thing. Being with Ashley.. changed me. Ashley. I shook my head. I didn’t want anymore thoughts of Ashley invading my mind.  Then out of the corner of my eye, I noticed her staring at me from the right. I had purposely sat as far away from her as possible, while she had apparently tried to get closer. Jeez. She was about 2 desks away from me by the window. I knew I shouldn’t egg her on by looking back at her, but I couldn’t resist. What was wrong with me? I looked up for a brief moment. And my eyes met those chocolate colored eyes that I’d looked into almost everyday of my life last year. They were full of sorrow and a hint of sadness. She looked like she was going to whisper something towards me, but then I snapped my head away, and looked at the wall in the opposite direction. What more could she say to me? I was still pretty pissed off at having seen her and Aiden make out by her locker this morning.

During lunch I sat down with Chelsea, Sean, and Carmen at a table as far away as possible from Ashley and Aiden. “Carmen, I’m going to have to swing by the market afterschool to buy some things for tonight. And I want it to be a surprise… so.. I’m afraid I’ll just have to drop you off at your house first. You can get all your stuff together and then come over when I’m ready.” Carmen looked up at me and grinned. “So.. what do you have planned so far? Or is it too special to tell me?” “Hmm..” I said, pretending to think hard.. “First, I’m going to get you nice and drunk off my parents liquor.. then I’m going to get you all nice and comfy on the couch downstairs with me and get a movie going.. then when the time is right I’m gonna take advantage of you and you’re gonna be screaming SPENCER! All night long and keep all the neighbors awake.” I said evilly, and then burst into a fit of laughter. Carmen turned bright red and smacked me on the arm. “Okkk… guys…” said Chelsea.. her and Sean had their eyes bulging out of their heads from having heard my plan to seduce Carmen. “Sorry.” I squeaked, in between fits of laughter. Carmen’s face was priceless.