I’ll tell you what it is that drives me. I do whatever the hell I want. I could care less other wise.

“I have to go…” I finally spoke to the girl I just got done getting to know a little better.

“You…don’t have to go….” She said with a grin. I could tell she was desperate to get me to stay.

“No, I have to go.” I turned away from her and headed towards the door, walking out without looking back.

Its one of those moments, where you’re in a cold sweat and it comes down to walking away quietly or running out screaming. I imagine its similar to what it feels like after you’ve murdered someone…and I’m sure you’d utter the same thing either way…

("I need to get the fuck out of here….")

I could hear her mumble something as I walked out, then, finally she yelled out to me.

“You’re a fucking bitch!”

I smirked as I walked away and out of the door.

I found a pack of cigarettes on me so I took one out and light it, inhaling deeply.

I didn’t smoke regularly…but hell, tonight I was pretty strung out..and of course…smoking after sex..there was never too much hard in that.

I was pretty sexual for 17. I didn’t really think it was a big deal. For Christ Sake’s, I had already been pregnant, had a miscarriage…I’m not even with that guy anymore…Aiden. I’m sure he’s fucking the next big thing in school popularity. In fact, I could care less about guys…..

I took a few more hits before tossing the cigarette into the street.

I made my way to my car. When I got in, I opened up the glove box, pulled out a bottle and opened it up, taking a few pills and swallowing them dry. Oxycodone. Whatever, its going to help me forget about the sexual escapade I just narrowly escaped from.

That’s rule number one in the guide to Ashley Davies’ sex life.

1. Never, not ever, stay the night.

Of course, there’s multiple rules…..

2. Never get past a first name basis, with a fuck buddy.

(I don’t care who or how hot you are.)

3. Never sleep with a dealer….you can sleep with someone you get drunk or high with….but not someone who supplies you with it….you’ll never know when they slip you something worse then what you’ve already had…and waking up in the E.R from an overdose….only to find out you’ve been raped in the process….