‘God I feel so woozy from that shot…’ is my last thought before I drift to the blackness I know so well…

I hate the dark and hospitals and smart ass doctors! She thinks she’s all of that I know her type. Even though…

‘You know it’s your fault don’t you’ I hear again in my head ‘yes I know’ I replay defeated… no she can’t help me… no one can…

"Where am I?" I ask aloud. I look around ‘no it can’t be! I was just at the hospital’ no No NO… someone is watching me I can feel it! ‘This isn’t real you’re crazy remember?’ I can’t be back here!

"Where are you?" I hear a voice "I’m back there… NO I have to get out!" I hear myself say but it’s not coming from my mouth.

‘What the hell is going on?’ I look around the dark walls the fences closing me in "it’s my job" I hear him close to me. "It’s my job to cleans you from those thoughts those dirty thoughts!" he is right there! NO I have to get away "there’s no where to run"

"What are you so afraid of?"  It’s her voice "it’s him he’s after me!!" I again hear myself scream from somewhere else.

‘This can’t go on it’s not real she did something to me! Wake up do you hear me wake up!’  But I can’t seem to control it she asks and I answer

"Who is he? What did he do to you?" she keeps asking. ‘no not again’ I feel my body start to shake I lose control "NNNNNOOOOOO" we both scream me and the me outside. I know what’s going on, my body’s convulsing horribly by now it must scare the shit out of her. She deserves it! I told her to let me go… she can’t help me.

Suddenly I’m pulled away. There is a bright light it’s hurting my eyes so I close them.

I’m back with myself. I’m being held by strong arms. It feels familiar god no one held me in such a long time I can’t actually even remember the last time…