Ch 12: Back At One

She took a hold of my hand. “Spencer I’m sorry, I’m sorry for the come here, go away trip I’ve been putting you through.”

“Okay why,” my voiced cracked. “Would you do that?”

 Oh great now my voice decides to crack.

 She pulled me closer, her lips were inches away, “Because I want you and I don’t want to hurt you.” I backed up. “Spencer, come to my place after the game.”

Do I give into the devil’s temptation? God save me!

I sighed as I tried to figure what my next word would be. Everything seemed to be falling into place but a part of me couldn’t help think of Jordan.

No no, please no, not the word vomit, help me!

“I,” I swallowed heavily before continuing, “Can’t Ashley,” And there it goes, oh my god what did I just do?

She stumbled back turning her eyes away. Reality finally sunk in, “Huh?” She cleared her throat and continued, “Why not? Spencer I’m trying here!” she screamed.

It’s a little too late; reality needs to bite her in the ass.

“I’m glad you made up your mind, but I’m with Jordan and you’re with Glen.” I gritted my teeth I didn’t want to do this. “I’m sorry.”

 I shouldn’t be toying with her emotions, but some part of me wants her have a dose of her medicine. Fuck!

“I’ve been thinking about you, my love and all the crazy things that you put me through. Now I’m coming around, throwing it back to you. Were you thinking of me when you kissed him could you taste me when you licked his skin.”

The pain flickered in her eyes. She closed them and the tears slowly trickled down. She tried to grab my arm but I pulled away.

Why am I doing this, it’s like the poltergeist has possessed me.

I turned to look at her one last time, “Spencer, don’t do this.” She pleaded. There wasn’t nothing else needed to be said, I left. 

“Let’s turn around and head in different directions, Like we never, it’s like we never knew each other at all. We said what we feel, then we stop ourselves, and just walk away. Never looking back, loving every second of it, we just walk away. This is probably the best, not to mention the worst idea, that I have ever had.”