A/N: Spencer’s thoughts, text messages, Ashley talking on the phone to Spence, songs and ringtones are Italicized.

Chapter 13: Sexual Healing

Should I walk in? Maybe, break down the door? Scratch that, with my luck I would break more me then actually door. Hmmm how about simply knocking? But what if she doesn’t want to see me? Fucking idiot of course she doesn’t want to see you, you broke her heart. So option one it is then.

Here goes…

The door flung open and banged against the wall.

Well let’s not just break her heart, let’s makes things even better by breaking her door as well. You know me always have to make an entrance.

My eyes scanned the room and found Ashley “Oh my god!” I yelled out. She turned to look at me and closed her eyes.

She opened her eyes and shook her head, “Carlin what the fuck is wrong with you, why’d you shout?” Her tone was harsh and cold.

“Good question,” I smiled and instantly received a glare, “It was the first thing that came to mind and well my mouth never knows when to insert my foot, so you got the privilege to see me make an ass out of myself once again.”

Do you notice that I like digging holes? Because it seems that’s all I do, at this rate I should be in fucking China.

Ashley took a deep breath and refocused her attention back on me, “Are you high Carlin? No don’t answer,” She paused and went to answer her on question. “You must be high, especially if think I want to see you fucking ass.”

Ouch, okay I deserved that! Shit what am I going to do? Brain of all the times to draw a blank you pick a time like this! Where is my mind? Fuck!

“Today is the day they’re going bring back to you. By now you should have realized what you gotta do. I don’t believe that anybody feels the way I do, about you now… And all the roads we have to walk are winding and all the lives leads us there are blind. There are many things I’d like to say to you but I don’t know how.”

Tell it how it is Carlin