My attention shifted to the window as my mind searched for a way to start. I opened my mouth and nothing came out. I finally exhaled and began, “Ashley I fucked up, it seems like that’s all I ever do. When I said I wanted to be your friend that was complete bullshit, but a part of me was still affected by the other night. I wanted to get back at you and in doing so I hurt the one person I care more about then anyone else I know.” I went to continue but Ashley cut in.

She laughed, “Hmmm it’s funny you know, you claim to care about me but you fail to realize the pain you feel and caused was because of your own fucking immaturity. How can I be with someone that’s willing to hurt someone else for their own agenda, Spencer? How do I know you won’t do it again? Huh?”

I sighed. “You don’t.” I simply stated. “I can promise I won’t do it again, but that won’t make you believe me. The only thing I can do is show in time that you can trust me, if you give me another shot. That’s all I can offer Ashley because that’s all I got.” My eyes burned into hers and waited for her answer.

“It’s only you beautiful, I don’t want anyone else. If I can chose, it’s only you.” 

“I hate my heart,” she remarked.

Huh? I gave her a puzzled look, she must have read it.

“I hate my heart! My mind tells me to let you go for the pain you’ve caused, but I can’t. I can’t help; every look, every touch, every word, you do. You completely intoxicate me and it makes me fall even harder for you. Fucking heart!” She lightly laughed. I smiled and went to approach her.

Well I hate my mind and my mouth. I can’t seem to control either.

“I guess that’s what you get when you let your heart win…” I waited for her to finish

She rolled her eyes and started to sing back, “Woah, that’s what you get when you let your heart when woah, I drown out all my senses, with the sounds of it beating.” She ended and faced me, “Spencer no more games, no more schemes, this is it, okay?”