*************

Ashley’s POV

It’s been three months. Three months since that night. Lindsey apologized her ass off. She showed that she was dedicated to being with me and wouldn’t hurt me again. Sure she has slipped up a bit, but I’m being patient with her. I know that this serious relationship thing is hard for her. I told her I wasn’t ready to tell any of my friends or family that we were engaged. To be honest I just didn’t feel right, after that night I came back, I always have that constant fear that she might do something to me again. Don’t get me wrong I love her more than anything, she’s my true love I can’t live with out her. But I can’t help but be scared when we argue. When I told her that Spencer was pregnant she wouldn’t stop telling me how sorry she was for acting that way. I forgave her but I couldn’t shake the feeling that she did something, if all she did was party that week why is she constantly apologizing? Maybe my mind is just playing tricks on me. I just know that I want to help her and be there for her when it comes to us.

I feel bad for not talking to Spencer as much as I used to, Lindsey told me that she was taking up so much of our time together. I still feel bad for leaving Lindsey to go check on Spencer, I even stayed in Albuquerque for Thanksgiving and Christmas break to prove to her that I mean to stay with her. When I do talk to her its just simple, 5 minute conversations. Sometimes when I am with Lindsey I wonder how Spencer is, how she’s dealing with her pregnancy… I wonder if she’s having a boy or a girl.. Either way I hope her baby has her crystal sapphire eyes and blonde hair. I felt myself smile.

“Hey baby, what u doing?” hearing Lindsey’s voice and feeling her lips on mine snapped me from my thoughts. “thinking of me I hope.” she smiled.

When she said that I felt guilt cloud my features, I looked down to avoid any confrontation. I tensed when she lightly touched my chin, silently telling me to look up at her. Crap. She caught me, but when I looked up I saw her smirk and her eyes held no anger, it was something else. Her smile grew.

“It’s cute when you’re embarrassed that I caught u thinking of me.” she kissed me again.”I love you so much. And I know that you have been so stressed and stuff with school and I haven’t been helping with always wanting your attention and everything, and for that I am so sorry, baby.”

Her lush green eyes and seemed to burn into mine. Her scent was intoxicating, and her touch may not set me on fire like it used to but I knew I loved her. How could I think of my best friend when I have such an incredible girlfriend right in front of me?.. Cue guilt again..

Love can be such a bitch..