Spencer: There is still so much I don’t know about you Ashley. But I don’t need your protection. I’m a big girl, I can handle myself. (she gave a devilish smile)

Ashley: Seriously, I don’t want to screw it up. (She’s giving me a pout)

Spencer: Seriously…you won’t.

(She leans in and closes her eyes. God I want to kiss her…)

Ashley: Spencer…(in a frustrated tone)

(After I say her name she sits up and I do so too. She turns to me, kisses me on the cheek and pulls back a few inches so we are just inches away from each other. Face to face.)

Spencer: Believe me when I say this. I don’t want to get hurt…

Ashley (interupting): I know thats why I’m..

Spencer: Let me finish…I thought about you all night last night. All day today and I loved the fact my parents like you. Although, my mother wouldn’t really approve of my feelings and why I invited you…I am telling you this. I want to take it slow. I really like you Ash, but I can tell…this whole safety act isn’t just for me. You are scared too. 

Ashley: Scared? I’m trying to do you a favor.

Spencer: You are scared of getting hurt. You know that I’m not sure about liking girls and you are scared you will be my “experiment” Well…I hope when you get to know me better you will understand that I would never do that. I know you don’t want to hurt me and I think thats great. But I don’t think I’m the only one that isn’t completely open here…

(I look in her eyes, she really means everything. I believe her. I want to kiss her more now than ever. Just as I’m thinking that. I close my eyes and lay back down on my back. I feel her come towards me, she puts her hand on my face to make me open my eyes)

Spencer: I’m usually never this forward or outgoing….I just feel like…Oh what the hell…

(Just as she said that she pressed her lips to mine, a long, but soft kiss. Just one. She looked at me, and smiled. Then she laid back down next to me…with her arms around my waist…she fell asleep. The smell of lavender calmed me and I did the same…)