The waves of the ocean crashed over me and I could feel myself slowly sinking into the sand. The water was very warm. The sun was beginning to come up over the horizon causing the sky to turn a brilliant pink with orange strips of clouds stretching across the sky. This would normally be something beautiful but it was nothing…dull compared to Bella. I literally had no idea where I was, when I was running the pain had obscured my vision and I barely made it through the several miles of woods without crashing out.

I closed my eyes and there she was, beautiful, a soft blush creeping into her porcelain cheeks. The waves continued to crash over me. My hand was still placed firmly on my chest, trying to find my heart. I knew where it was, it was in Forks. Wave after wave crashed over me until I was now several inches into the sand. I didn’t care; I would sink down until I was in hell. I was already burning, though, each agonizing breath of the salty air ripped at my lungs because it was absent of the scent I craved the most.

I opened my eyes to see another wave come crashing over me. A seagull flew over head and splashed into the water, catching a fish. I felt like I would never be able to move from this spot in fear that if I were to get up the only direction I would go is towards her. Towards my whole life, the reason that I exist is for her. I knew it, and this is why I was burning; flames ripping up and down my body scorching me and turning my body into ash

Another wave. It didn’t put out the fire that was slowing cooking me. I took another agonizing breath. Is this what it felt like to die? Because that is how I feel – like I’m dying, except my body is too strong to die so easily – so instead I’m stuck with the feeling of death without the ecstasy of the end. This was the end, though. There would be nothing else – nothing. No more smiles, no more joy – no more teasing or joking. Nothing.