“no…no that’s totally my bad” I replied as I turned around pulling my own shirt over my head and taking off my jeans

“spence…” Ashley started

“yeah?”

“you are…really hot” she said making me laugh a little then I turned around

“come here…” I told her and she slowly walked over to me really nervous, until I kissed her. Locking our lips together yet again and it’s like the kisses just kept getting better and better. Was I worried that this was my best friend, of course not; it actually hadn’t even dawned on me. The fact was that I love Ashley…she gets me, and I’m doing my best to understand her.

I broke the kiss taking her right hand in mine and I laced our fingers together bringing her hand towards my abs and she took a deep breath “…relax” I told her smiling as I kisses her quick a light as I ran her fingers along my stomach which even sent chills through my body even thought I was making her do it to me.

She smiled at me pulling me into another kiss as I held her body into mine, then I heard walking downstairs and I broke the kiss and she looked confused because she didn’t hear it. And it wasn’t that I had a fear of getting caught, I just wanted our first time to be somewhere where there were no distractions and it could just be me and her.

“I’m sorry…” I started holding her hands in mine “…it’s just I want our first time to be when we don’t have to worry about getting caught or anything…” I told her

“yeah…good point” she said

“but if my parents weren’t home…” I started then she got it and nodded

“yeah I know” she said then I put on a sports bra and boxer shorts and we got into bed together and she still wore the bandages on her arms and I’m guessing she saw me looking at them “I keep telling myself to take them off…but I just can’t look at it…it’s like they’re the last thing keeping me from reality” she explained

“yeah, but you have to come back sooner or later” I told her

“I know…I’m just not ready yet” she told me then I gave her a single kiss on the lips as I rested on my elbows talking to her