Spencer’s POV

It was tearing me apart K really loves me she has done so much for me so many things I didnt even have any idea about.. It was getting to the point I wanted to make myself love her I could feel how much she cared how much she loved me unfortunually I couldnt no matter how hard I tried my heart only belongs to Ashley.. all this made me realize how much Ashley loved me too she had suffer so much to a point she couldnt even handle herself.. Kayla was always the stronger one I guess thats why she helped Ashley more.. I dont know what to do anymore they are both pulling me and they dont even know it I mean of course my love for Ashley is unconditional she drives me crazy in a good way.. however Kayla is my best friend I cant reject her she has so much for me.. "STOP MESSING WITH MY MIND!" both crying " Spencer what are you talking about I just came to tell you.." I know what she gonna say please dont say it I dont know how to take it you dont love me Kayla you dont! "NO dont say it you dont love me K you can’t Kayla I.." " but Spencer I came to tell you.." there was only one way this can be stop real feelings had to come out "kiss me!" "what?! spence." "Shh dont say anything just kiss me and if you feel something then you will know" without thinking twice I got closer to her and started kissing her and every second I kept thinking it was Ashley when we broke apart she looked confused whats worse that all this time we didnt realize Ashley.. standing in my door looking like the day I saw Kayla and Ashley together broken and hurt.. " I see how much you love me now huh wow I never though you be such a slut Spencer!" those words hurt it was like everysingle one was getting tattoed to my heart "ASHLEY no its not what it seems like please stop it you dont mean it you dont mean what you just said" Kayla was still on shock she wasn’t moving it was like she was realizing something.. "Spence I’m sorry you you arent a slut I.. I dont know what to think anymore what do you want me to do I just came here and see you making out with Kayla! WHO DO YOU LOVE PLEASE TELL ME BECAUSE THIS IS PRETTY DAMN CONFUSING!" Ashley said looking straigh at my eyes…

it didnt take a second for me to answer that question I always been sure of who I want "Ashley you know who i love! it always been you and you damn know it! just know that.. that didnt mean anything" now I turned to Kayla "not trying to hurt you but K I always loved Ashley I dont want to hurt you but.." it felt horrible for doing this to her but I had to follow my heart "STOP IT Ashley Spencer just stop it now! and listen to me.. Ashley what happen just now it.. it meant anything she was trying to help me I finally figured out my feelings… Ashley all the time we were together it helped me .. us so much but we know well that we want different people to be with I love you and I always will.. and Spencer I .. all this time I though I loved you I was wrong now I see it, you… you are like a sister to me! all that I wanted to do was to protect you and take care of you I want you to be happy and I know only one person can do that and thats Ashley she has always loved you truly and that I just something I cant fight against no matter what my feelings are.." Ashley and I were quiet quiet for a while… " I.. Im gonna go i have to start seeing where I’m gonna live now and get my things out of Ashley’s place..both you please dont forget I will always be here for you guys no matter what" with that she hugged us both and walked away leaving a single Ashley and a single me…..

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