i gathered my clothes and headed up the stairs, hoping the cold water would ease my pain. i needed to get my mind focused on something else. i shut the bathroom door softly behind me and stared into the mirror. i looked like hell. all the crying had made my eyes puffy and red. i was suprised that kyla hadn’t noticed. i guess you could mistake my look for exaustion and i was thankful for that, i didn’t need kyla on my back about it. i had to deal with things on my own. i went over to the shower and turned on the water deciding that a warm shower would probably be better than a cold one. i let the water run as i stripped off my clothes. the water wasn’t quite as warm as i had hoped so i wrapped a towel around myself and waited. that’s when the door opened and ashley walked in.

‘w-w-what are y-you doing in h-h-here?’ i stuttered, shocked and confused.

‘we need to talk’ she said softly as she shut the door behind her. i heard a light click and realized that she had locked the door. my heart was pounding in my chest and i struggled to breathe.

‘no, um i don’t think thats a good idea, just leave, you’ve done enough’ i told her. pain shot through her expression but she didn’t move to leave. i wanted nothing more than to be with her again and that desire was eating me alive.

‘spence…’

‘no! do you have any idea…?’ my voice broke, i had so much to say but the words wouldn’t come out of my mouth. a tear ran down my cheek.

‘i didn’t mean to hurt you, i just….’

‘oh really? then what did you mean to do ashley?’ i was angry now, the words flying out of me with such bitterness. i could tell my words had stung her, she hung her head low and didn’t say anything. the room was steaming up because the shower was still running. in another minute i might not be able to see her clearly, that would make this easier if i didn’t have to see her beautiful face.

‘spencer… i think i’m going to end things with taylor. the truth is i’ve always been attracted to you… but i thought you were straight. plus you’re like ky’s best friend, she wouldn’t be happy’ my heart fluttered in my chest. i couldn’t believe ashley was actually saying this. i couldn’t help but smile a little. luckily the steam was thick enough in the room that she wouldn’t notice.

‘ashley… you really feel that way? how do i know that you’re not gonna mess with me again? how can i trust you?’ i was having a internal battle. part of me wanted to tell her that i didn’t trust her and to never to talk to me again, but part of me wanted nothing more than to be in her arms again. the second side was winning.

‘there’s no reason for you to trust me and i understand if you can’t… if you don’t want to… be with me, but the honest truth is i think i might be falling in love with you…’ ashley said. i could tell she was sincere and a happiness spread through me that i couldn’t control. the girl i was desperately in love with just told me she was falling for me. what do i do?

‘ashley… i don’t… i’m not sure what to say… except that… i’ve always loved you ashley… and i don’t think i’ll ever stop’ i couldn’t believe this was happening, it was like a dream. a tear fell from ashley’s eye.

‘spence…’ she whispered. tears streamed from my eyes too as i wondered what was gonna happen now.

TBC

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